Diary! Dose is work?

Day 2: Success! (barely)

Urges are strong, stronger than before, is hard to control them... I hope with the new year i will have a stronger motivation to abstain from PMO, at least for another two months, i m happy with that.

Happy New Year to all!

 

Day 3: Success!

No problems on this day.

 

Day 4: Success!

Just cheeking in.

 

Day 6: Success!

Is hard to control the thoughts, all i can hear in my mind is peek, peek, just a few pics to quench the thirst. I know myself very well, so is not gonna be just "a few pics"...

 

Day 0: Here we go again! Pray for me.

 

Day 1: Success!

Yah, is just day one on a (i hope) a more serious streak. I went to the church, i have not done that in months, it felt awkward to be there after that long.

 

Day 2: Success!

 

Day 3: Success!

Some thoughts here and there.

 

Day 5: Success!

Its summer, triggers are everywhere on the street. Girls are wearing more and more revealing clothes, is like i changed the habit from staring at a women on a picture to looking at them while walking on the street.
Unfortunately, i m still getting the cravings to watch P pics, and the temptation is stronger than usual this days.

Passed few months, i was on weekly relapse (some times more often), i accepted that because i told myself that is way better than every day like it was before, and it is, but is not enough, i want more that a week.

I stopped posting here because i went trough a depression at the beginning of the year and then this stupid war started, there was rumors of mass conscription and panic in my country (still is). First week i relapsed every day and bingeing like an idiot do calm myself, the worst part was that it did not work.

 

Day 6: Success!

Here we go again, its weekend... i don t work weekend s, so i have plenty of time and opportunities to relapse. Thinking going to do some shopping so i wont be in the house, but as i said early r, the streets are full of temptations.

Pray for me!

 

Day 7: Success!

One week down, tbh it actually went better that i expected. Let s see if i can make it two weeks!

 

Day 8: Success!

Weekend is gone, no peek no nothing.

 

Day 11: Success!