Hello dear Brothers, A few days ago, I accidentally unearthed my NoFap account while sorting through old emails. I had created my account in 2016. Back then, I do not believe that I was aware of the existence of such a solid Christian group. In the past few days, I have eagerly scrolled through some of your journals and threads and it is difficult to describe how good an impact it has had on my soul. I can assure you, dear fellow soldiers of Christ, that I am lifting all of you in prayer, morning and evening, before the Throne of Grace. "And whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do those things that are pleasing in His sight." (1 John 3. 22). I know many of you pray as well, thank you. And the revealed Word of God makes it clear : "For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality" (1 Thess. 4. 3 NKJV). This is forum is, I believe, the Gospel at work, 21st Century style. What better use could we make of the Internet, where all sorts of immorality reigns (porn being, sadly, one of many) than to humble ourselves before God and before one another and obey the Word of God: "Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. (James 5. 15 NKJV) On this verse John Calvin comments : "(...) [James] connects mutual prayer with mutual confession; by which he intimates that confession [benefits] for this end, that we may be helped as to God by the prayers of our [brothers]; for they who know our necessities, are stimulated to pray that they may assist us; but they to whom our diseases are unknown are more [delayed] to bring us help." Maybe, if we focus on our own sinfulness, it is difficult to see it; but I firmly believe that our Lord delights in what is going on here and he that he wills to assist us all with the help of the Holy Spirit. I did not intially come here for help. But reading through the forum I realized how much I was in danger. I recommited to Christ on Easter 2019 and have attended church regularly since and taken communion, which I believe are absolutely vital for a Christian. But I do not have any form of accountablity in my life (my church was unfortunatly a bit imporesonal and we had not groups to open up about that). Sin, as we all know, is very to hide behind a Bible, a hymnal and a polite smile after a worship service. I have this desire to be known, I believe we all do and I believe this is a great place to do that. It is easy to feel like we can belong here. My goal is here is to make short, concise (that is going to take some supernatural power!) updates in order to: 1. share what God is doing in my life (not just focus on sin, but worship him by being honest and transparent) 2. prepare a way, make my heart ready for future temptation and trials by learning from you and participating in the forum and learning to turn to my brothers before it is too late 3. humbly serve you and encourage my brothers (and some sisters here maybe? I don't know) (4. Find APs — a few brothers have responded to my post for APs and I am very thankful. But feel free to ask and I will tell you if I can do it). I recently moved back to my birth country (and birth city, which spiritually is very significant for my familiy and I, a return to the region where we have our roots). I had been looking for a new church for a few months. It was not easy to find a one because I know very well what I want in terms of doctrine and I am very strict with this. Here in Europe it is not always easy to have choice like in the UK or in the US. (And there are much fewer churches in general.) I was visiting a church for the 3rd time this morning and I left with the assurance that I was in the right place, which was a huge weight of my back. The sermon was gold and I introduced myself to the leading pastor and we will soon meet. The Lord is good I am telling you! I have posted a draft of my testimony in my profile under "information". I am currently working on writing the story of how God saved me but it takes time and I will post the information there at some point. When it is done, I hope it will be of some encouragement to some. I have never shared my story and nobody but God knows it because I lived a secret life of sin for about about two decades. For pointers, it will be about growing up in a Christian cult, decades of struggling with mental illness, depression, syndromes of depersonalization and derealization, a psychopathological rejection of men while idolizing some, PTSD, the hatred of my poor emotionally unequipped mother towards me, a quest for truth and victory over sin that lead me a couple times in psychatric ER, a decades of struggle with and eventually freedom from homosexuality, my rebellion and my hatred of (a false) God but being unable to escape him and finally encoutering the Truth that set me free. All the while I did not do much but doubt him, crucify him anew with my sin. But that is a story for another day. I love you brothers, thank you all for your bold commitment to letting the Father of Light shine the glory of his only Son your life, through the Holy Spirit. Let us keep sharing and praying for one another. In Christ, m.