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Did I just relapse?!

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by JJohnson, Jun 17, 2015.

  1. Jun 17, 2015 #1
    JJohnson

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    Weird question. I'm sorry if it seems odd. I'm going on two days and was doing pretty good. However, I have a little problem. Today I decided to go with some silk boxers. I took my afternoon break and decided to take a little walk instead of sitting in my car as I usually do. Too much temptation in my car with my tinted windows and cellphone with unlimited data.

    My walk was uneventful at first but the silk against my privates felt good. In a moment of weakness I walked a little faster, then slower, then faster, and faster, then slower, and before I knew it I ejaculated. I didn't think about any porn, or did I objectify any women in my mind.

    I feel bad about it, but I'm not sure if I technically relapsed. I didn't fap, but I am guilty of adjusting my walking pace in order to maximize the feeling.

    Thoughts?!
     
    JJohnson, Jun 17, 2015
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  2. Jun 17, 2015 #2
    DannyCool

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    The penis has become very sensitive after all the fapping. You need to wait a while (50days maybe) and wash well before it looses its sensitivity. You also need to keep good boundaries for yourself during rebooting. For example having unlimited credit on your phone does not sound too healthy to me but that is up to you and how you use your phone
    It is up to you if you want to reset it sounds like an accident to me. It sounds like you are really working on your reboot and so this is very positive.
     
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  3. Jun 17, 2015 #3
    JJohnson

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    Thanks for the reply, I've had so many setbacks within the last week and i feel like this an accident, I think just for self confidence sake, I'm not going to reset this time, unless somebody feels differently about it. The good thing about this, is I feel a renewed sense of strength. I feel like maybe this was a good thing. I guess I'm not wearing those silk boxers anymore though!! Lol.
     
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  4. Jun 17, 2015 #4
    VanillaMochi

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    Something similar has happened to me while riding a bike a long time ago. I didn't O but I definitely found myself taking advantage of the situation for a few brief moments.

    I would hope that next time I would take a break instead and not give in to stimulating myself. Better for the reboot.
     
    VanillaMochi, Jun 17, 2015
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  5. Jun 17, 2015 #5
    mv8652

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    Well, you seem to have learned from your mistake, so it's not a total loss. Less than two full days more or less on your counter isn't really important, but whether you consider this a relapse is up to you. It's been said that if you have to ask, it probably is (except for innocent acts like having a wet dream). My own take is that your ejaculation was accidental, but your stimulation of yourself was intentional--once you noticed how good the silk felt and chose to walk certain ways to increase it. Therefore, even before the ejaculation, it was hands-free edging; and edging is M. (As a recovering edging addict, I know that.)
     
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  6. Jun 17, 2015 #6
    icandoit22

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    its okay dude, everyone makes mistakes :)
     
    icandoit22, Jun 17, 2015
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