Student currently trying to quit PMO. I´ve tried for 2 years with no success, the best streak was 2-3 days. I was decided to quit for good now, had a vision of a better self and a better future. Started in June, I felt bad physically and mentally but a day at at time I got through it. Sunday, June 7 came was at my beast streak ever of 7 days and I just couldn´t get out of bed. Lots of things that I needed to do. This week I have final exams, homework, a literature review, and a presentation. It just felt like too much and was unable to get out of bed. I knew that if I masturbated I would be able to begin the day. So I did, watched some pornographic pictures and began to masturbate, after a while, I just left bad, and deep down knew that I would feel even worse when I finish. So pushed the phone aside and stood up. Physically I feel the dopamine on me and mentally feel like I just gave up and a loser. Did I lost the 7-day streak, I´m I on day 0 even tho I didn't orgasm? How to deal with the hard days and does it gets easier?
@Cuauhtémoc I've experienced very similar things like this in the past. The thing that you've done is called as "edging" and we all should stay away from these things during our reboot process. Focus on staying away from any kind of pornographic stuff and be aware of its harms. To deal with these hard days, you should spend time with your own healthy habits. I've done all of my long streaks by being hard-working as I can and never killed time with bad stuff. As we're all students that are in recovery from PMO, studying is a really good way to kill your urges which lead to relapses and binges. I hope that you'll do your best throughout time and meet your own goals by fully quitting PMO.
