Did porn turn me gay?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Darin, Sep 27, 2017.

  1. Darin

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    I was into women before and still fall for many women but with time I started watching more and more weird things - trans people/drag queen porn and then wanking guys to get ideas for wanking.

    The thing is my body started requiring weirder and weirder porn to get a boner. I would watch guys wanking in public or sounding their urethra or getting singed by bees or stinging nettle down there haha. I even tried putting a pen in my urethra as normal masturbation causes no pleasure.

    Thing is in real life I don't feel attracted to guys sexually at all, only on video I get this buzz. Why is that? And should we turn hot when aroused, but why my hands and feet turn cold when I watch those videos and I have weird chills, like getting a cold?

    Recently I went back to vanilla, nude photos of females and... while I do have a nice reaction it's more emotional. Physically I just have hot flashes in my face and hands (vs the cold flashes, hands and feed I get when aroused by wank videos). But my dick doesn't get the message and I can't get it hard?

    Is it connected to the way porn affects the brain? And why watching wank videos makes me have cold hands and feet and tremors? I think somehow my body/brain/heart deep inside knows it is not for me, against my nature hence the weird cold waves and chills? When I jerk off I don't think about anything or anyone, I just do it for the pleasure which has diminished, I've become anorgasmic, I feel more pleasure before the supposed orgasm.
     
  2. HappyDaysAreHereAgain

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    Reboot, and you will discover the real you, what you were before you twisted yourself around with porn. The results are amazing.
     
  3. AtomicTango

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    You've answered your own question here, no, porn hasnt turned you gay, all you need to do to get rid of these feelings is to abstain from PMO, it really is that simple. If you actually were gay you would be attracted to men in real life, not just physically but also mentally and emotionally, the fact you seem aware of the fact gay porn doesnt truly arouse you proves beyond all doubt that you have an addictive personality and are being led astray by porn, just like many of us on the site.
     
  4. I had wondered this too. Not attracted to men in real life at all but started getting aroused by seeing guys masturbate.
     
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  5. nofepper

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    i just drag my dick so hard after reading this...can't imagine something inside dick... and once i took injection in an eye
     
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  6. Jackb97

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    Not being a homophobe but who the fuck would want to be gay. Get off the porn and pray to god.;)
     
  7. dr_persistent

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    You are not gay, it is just a porn. I had same problems but I have overcame it, believe me, it is hard, but you can do it.
     
  8. MarinoBigFan1984

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    You don’t turn gay. You are gay or not gay.
     
  9. what day you on? just curios. I like it. I am not choosing to fap today.
     
  10. HappyDaysAreHereAgain

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    My counter quit showing up here :(, I have been here for a while, and I was using an older model. Today, I am on day
    374. I did 348 days hard, no PMO, before returning to enjoy O with my wife.
    I was totally PIED when I started NoFap, and my wife was very frustrated. There have also been complications with a couple of deaths and some serious illness with parents, other family, and close friends. We still are not as sexually active as I hope we will be, but I am abundantly more functional than I had been for years :). I gladly slept on the wet spot. :rolleyes:
     
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  11. ICDI

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    quit porn dude and you will see.
     
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  12. Darin

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    When I abstain from MO suddenly I find female bodies more exciting. After PMO it takes something very taboo/out there to get excited.

    Strangely I notice many things among my gay acquantances - ALL of them are addicted to sweets and sugar (raises estrogen) and they all have high libido so they climax very often (downregulation of D2 and androgen receptors).

    I'm not saying all gay guys are straight ones in disguise, however it might explain why so many men have become Nice Guys lol. Also add anti-male bias and propaganda in media (I remember breaking down as a kid due to an artical in a medical (!) magazine calling my gender inferior). Might explain the boom of MtF and the hatred for their natal gender in some of them.

    But even I notice it in me - wank and I like girls only romantically. Abstain and I become attracted to their bodies as well. I have dreams of being a MtF (lesbian) thoughts when MO while if I do real sex with a woman I feel proud in my masculinity.
     
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  13. buddy that's the story of my life, it's why i almost ended up in prison. Although it's not your body, it's your mind that you have to master. There's a vast difference between enjoying intimacy with someone, and watching a quick 1 minute video of people doing all manner of things to each other. You should read 'your brain on porn' by Gary Wilson. It will help you to understand the desensitisation process that goes on in your brain. The good thing is we have neuro plasticity which means when we learn we create new neural pathways in our brains, they become our subconscious 'go to' points when we see things or hear things. How often have you learned a new piece of information about something or someone and then your emotional response changes, it could be for better or worse but the point is our brains are works in progress for much of our life.
     
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  14. Ross286

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    It's likely just because gay porn is "taboo" or novel to you. This is the way our brains work. When my usual porn stopped working, I went to some pretty weird places (to me at least). I ended up getting into transgender porn, something I hadn't even thought about before the age of 25! I've done a few short reboots and quickly started finding women way more attractive, even dreaming of them. Unfortunately I keep relapsing, but I'm determined to overcome what internet porn has done to me.
     
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  15. noonoon

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    You're knee deep in the hell that is PMO addiction. Spiritually and (now) physically you are sick. You're not gay, you're...well, possessed. Possessed by that she-person PMO. Admit your addiction and seek help.
     
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  16. Darin

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    Yes, I'm so deep I think a chastity device purchase is on the map...
     
  17. JamesD

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    This is quite common. Your brain quickly moves on to novelty with porn. It's a slippery slope.

    After a while people 'want' to be the people in the porn scenes. This may make you want to be the girl if you find her particularly desireable.

    Best and healthiest mind is to avoid it. That's the bit I find tough though.
     
  18. Jackb97

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    I really doubt that's how it works. You turn straight or gay during puberty your not in the womb like you cant wait to get out and suck dick or vice versa.
     
  19. W3sley

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    Thing about porn is that you are damaging your dopamine rescepors from frequent watching and wanking off. Soon your dopamine sky rockets and you try to look for more shocking content.
     
  20. This is interesting. I think straight guys can get aroused by watching this, because you are imagining yourself in that situation, and you get turned on by the memory of the sensation that you felt when you did it alone.

    Now, if you are watching a guy jack off, and you have the undesirable urge to put your mouth on it, you're gay.

    I would say, if in doubt, recall your body's response in teen years, when you got those uncontrallable iron clad boners. Was it a girl or guy who caused that? There is your answer.
     

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