Long story short, my addiction slowly moved towards escorts until I actually saw one. I felt so guilty I seriously considered suicide. After a few months I told my girlfriend, the day we got engaged. She was supportive and helped me begin the process of overcoming my addiction. Since then I have slipped back into my addiction, and we have gotten married. We are long distance and I basically end up binging during the work week then recovering when I see her on the weekend. Last night in a drunken stupor I saw an escort again and I am so disgusted with myself. On top of things, her father passed away recently and she is very emotionally unstable. I don't know if I should tell her again, and if so how and when. My gut says that it is right to tell her, but that I should wait until things settle down for her and we can be together full time. I hate myself so much that I just cannot think straight and I want to hear what people here think.