Do u guys relate or I'm the only one.

It is normal, when you aren't mentally strong, pressure can put you into a state of self doubt. Just try to have faith in the process, the reboot will fix most problems

 

I know what you mean, but not because others fail means you will too.. it's non-sense. Having twisted thoughts about your sexuality is normal for someone with PMO problems, I've had them but because I have rebooted and now I am less weak than before. Start doing your job to get out of this and stop comparing yourself with others, it's not worth it. Focus on what you have now and what you can do with it

 

Simple
When you see a woman do you feel atracted to her ? If yes your not gay

 

I never really had gay thoughts per se but I was pretty into hardcore femdom and some borderline gay porn. For me, I just realized that that wasn't me and just trusted the process. I have struggled with relapse a few times but each time I push further and further they are becoming less and less. Just be aware that when you come out of your flatline the most disgusting thoughts will hit you the hardest. I never had an issue with the flatline but when the urges hit afterwards, that was the hardest time. Even though I have relapsed 4 days ago, I did notice that I wasn't nearly as interested in the crazy stuff and wound up with a more normal porn. Not exactly a victory but at least it was an improvement in my book. Just tell yourself that you know that isn't the real you and push it out of your head as fast as possible. Feeling like shit is normal, your dopamine levels are low, your self image is low, and you are literally rewiring your brain. It is going to be an emotional/hormonal rollercoaster sometimes. Just push forward man and maybe do some pushups or some other kind of "manly" exercise. Also, try walking with your shoulders back and chest out. It might sound dumb but you will be surprised how much better you feel and are viewed when you don't have the posture of defeat.