Do you remember having a sensitive brain?

Reading this makes me sad :/ i feel wasted

 

I was thinking about this the past few days, weird coincidence that you posted when you did.

I'm 22 and very little excites me anymore and its kinda distressing at times. I wouldn't go as far as to say I straight up suffer from Anhedonia (which is the complete inability to feel pleasure from normally pleasurable activities), but I'm definitely desensitised to pleasure to the extent I find it very hard to find anything genuinely pleasurable a lot of the time. The few seemingly random times I do experience genuine happiness, it in the long run just makes the rest of the time I dont experience it seem worse. That isn't to say I'm completely joyless, in fact a lot of the time I'm in what I would call a "good mood", but I think my problem is my definition of a "good mood" is much lower than that of a regular person. At this stage I'm not really even sure what to do about it, I'm nearly 200 days into NoFap and while it has helped massively in other areas it hasnt really helped lift my general mood as much as it has helped eliminate the mood swings excessive PMO causes.

 

i noticed after like day 10 on my reboot old sensations came back, like when i listened to music i got so many chills and tears started flowing without warning, honestly i feel dead inside right now, i feel like so many things are lost to me now.

 

I think it's just life possibly. As a kid, I was much more excited for things (as I presume a lot of people were). But you get used to stuff.

It's like porn, as an example we can all relate to. There's so many differing degrees of pornography. Ranging from a bikini magazine, to erotic literature, to just normal sex videos, then to some fetishes, and then some extreme levels of porn I wont name bc it doesn't matter.

You may start off slow at the less insane stuff, get bored, and work your way up to some insane shit

 

Interesting post, thanks for putting it up.

One of the things I did often early on to break this PMO habit/addiction was just get outside and go siteseeing. Sometimes I’d go to Seattle or more often across the bay from me to San Francisco.

Really most sites I had seen before. But this time it all seemed more exciting to me. It was like I had closed a book in my life and opened another. The same things seemed different.

I was no longer walking around with a sex obsessed mind. I wasn’t turning everything and everyone into part of a sex fantasy.

 

If life gets more boring, most people would kill themselves in rural areas... Think of these 70 years old people who have always lived in their town, never even been to see the sea, and still there, sitting on a chair outside home sharing a chat with their friends or playing some board game.
I think we got used to an insane amount of novelty, constant stimuli, specially from porn, YouTube an social media. So that's why we get bored soon now, we killed our attention spam. I read about this guy who eventually, I don't know if once a month, he does this dopaminr rebooting, by spending a whole sunday not doing anything rewarding. Dull food and a short walk as most. I have to try that.

 

As a 20 year old now, PMO has been regular since the age of 11/12 until the last year and contributed to my social anxiety and general lack of positivity. I became very irritable and negative, I would rarely laugh at anything, I lacked energy. Now, when I am into a streak I start to become excited by small things e.g. going for lunch with a friend and wake up with a more positive outlook. I think quitting TV, social media and limiting screen time definitely helps you appreciate the smaller things in life and be happier with what you have.