Does any one else struggle with shemale prositute addiction?

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  1. Peaceful magic 21

    Peaceful magic 21 Fapstronaut

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    I’ve been battling this degrading habit for some years. With the help of a therapist It was starting to really loose it’s pull and I’d find them a lot less attractive; noticing their masculine features. After some really stressful life situations, I’ve ended up revisiting a few of these escorts. The first one was a porn star and really was convincing but had a shit attitude and wasn’t really engaging in the activity so it didn’t really scratch any itches I was trying to get at. The second one was less convincing but got into the sex. I sniffed some poppers to try and make it more intense but then ended up stopping thinking what the f#*k am I doing. I then thought I’ve drove this far and started the act I’m only going waste more time and money trying to find another escort. So I finished off and left thinking that was pretty disgusting. Only on day four no PMO but really want to get my old self back that was driven and confident. Any insights and encouragement would be massively appreciated. Thanks
     
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    Have sex with a woman, you'll feel the energy of a woman is more pleasant and gives you more balance than a ts
     
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  3. Well, I spent tenth of thousands of cash with prostitues online (findom) and in physical meet ups and what I suggest is before trying to figure out why you have this crush for shemales I would think of how can I stop my addiction. Imagine an alcoholic trying to figure out while drunk or inbetween drinks why he is drinking wine at not beer.
    Gabor Maté says: "Addiction is manifested in any behavior that a person craves, finds temporary relief or pleasure in but suffers negative consequences as a result of, and yet has difficulty giving up. In brief: craving, relief, pleasure, suffering, impaired control. Note that this definition is not restricted to drugs but could encompass almost any human behavior, from sex to eating to shopping to gambling to extreme sports to TV to compulsive internet use: the list is endless." (This is from https://drgabormate.com/opioids-universal-experience-addiction/ ) He also says the question is not why the addiction but why the pain.

    Dig deeper and start or continue your healing and recovering process. Find ways, tools and strategies to stay sober and clean. Find pleasure and fulfillment in staying on track, don't ask why am I like this cause your brain then finds only answers that tell you why but also keep you stuck. Ask the right questions, some that your brain then will engage in finding ways out. Imagine that you'd be in 2 years from now and in these two years you stayed clean and sober. How would you describe yourself? How would you feel? How would you look? How would you talk? What could be a possible next step for you that brings you closer to your old self?
     
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    The sex with shemales isn’t to do with orientation. Just found this which is quite interesting:
    When we hear the word ‘self-harm’ most of us will think of the act of physically hurting ourselves. But as the name suggests, self-harm is just that – anything that harms the self. This means self-harm can encompass much more than just the physical. In fact, it’s possible to cause ourselves mental and emotional self-harm that can be just as damaging to us in the long run.

    Let’s take a closer look.

    The inner critic: when our biggest critic is actually ourselves
    “I’m useless”, “nobody will ever love me”, “everybody here thinks I’m an idiot” – sound familiar? Here’s a (not so) warm welcome to your inner critic. Our inner critic is our own personal running commentary of criticism; the voice inside our heads that’s out to shame us, and cause us doubt at every turn.

    Everyone has an inner critic, but some people have a much louder, harsher one than others. This can be down to a number of reasons. Our inner critic is formed from childhood or adolescence, from the voices we had around us when we were growing up. This means someone who suffered emotional abuse – or perhaps very strict or critical parents – will likely have a harsher inner critic to contend with than someone who grew up in a more supportive household.

    That said, subtle forms of criticism can also be damaging. Perhaps you had a teacher that ridiculed your abilities in the classroom, or you got bullied for the way you walked or talked. These criticisms – no matter how big or small – accumulate to make us feel like we’re not adequate, as though we’re “different” somehow or that there’s something “wrong” with us that needs “fixing”.

    We run into danger when we don’t recognise our inner critic for what it is – a collection of opinions from the past – and instead allow it to dictate our lives. When our inner critic grows unchecked, it can cause us deep emotional self-harm, leading to low self-esteem, self-sabotage, underachievement – and sometimes even depression.
    It’s always when I’m overwhelmed with a task, feel stupid and useless that I hit the [email protected]£k it button and indulge in this garbage. A distraction- an intense rush - self abuse - pain.
     
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