Does anybody else feel like their life is in total chaos?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by AustinDPowers, Nov 18, 2019.

  1. AustinDPowers

    AustinDPowers Fapstronaut

    I’m currently rebooting and the thought hit me my life has been in total chaos since I first got addicted to PMO. Everything is completely out of control. Everything seems like a mess and very difficult to process.

    Specific examples: everything is broken. I’m sitting at my desk studying right now and the draw is broken. Everything takes me 20x longer to understand than before I was addicted to PMO.

    Everything is in total disarray and all over the place. My sleeping pattern is epically screwed with no chance to fix it.

    It’s hard to describe things have been going very well for me in rebooting and I am getting healthier but the state of things is very chaotic. There is a mess everywhere. I clean things up they become a mess again. What should I do? This is very hard for me to handle and process mentally. I need organisation but don’t know where to start.
     
  2. A_Andrew

    A_Andrew Fapstronaut

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    Yes, I know what it feels like. The anxiety has been overwhelming for me lately. I've been doing meditation and other things to help alleviate some of the stress instead of resorting to the addiction. It's been difficult for me to sleep and get into a regular routine.
     
  3. Dinesh The Survivor

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    Same goes for me mate. I'm a guy who have been on 90 days streak once. After that not been able push myself further to that streak back, still trying to. I loose respect from my family cause they think i'm useless. My academic is chaotic. My overall health is at stake and had to deal with hair loss. Sometimes i don't find the reason for me to continue this life i have but, i'm still fighting all the odds. Don't give up mate.
     
  4. Discouraged

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    masturbation took my life, i lost everything. it's so weird i have tried everything imaginable, i dont get what this compulsion is. if i had known it was unbreakable habit , even selling porn videos in dvd and vhs stores really ruined my life , i can hardly believe they allow it.
    god it's so evil. they treat child porn like it's the worst most sickest sin and yet my god, what's the difference if it's 15 year old girls, it's all child adult themed porn on internet anyways. the point is all porn is just as evil as child porn and all pornographers are just as evil as child pornographers
     
  5. Discouraged

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    yeah just remember, you don't have to go months without, 2 weeks. 2 weeks and you'll be all healed up.

    this is a war for your LIFE. you don't see it as a big 300lb demon, ripped with tats, trying to choke you, slamming your head into the ground, but that's what it is. it's going to kill you, take your life, take your wife, take your children, steal your money, and then humiliateyou, make you homeless, or worse, a wage slave your entire life
     
  6. dankestmemes

    dankestmemes Fapstronaut

    Don't take this the wrong way: It looks like you legitimately need more discipline in your life. Start with simple things like being on time. 99% of the job is showing up to work. Be on time wherever you go. Make a schedule for training, eating, sleeping. When you have a schedule, you'll be able to organize time to fix things or do errands. Forget the phone, use a PHYSICAL calendar. You can buy cheap, blank ones at MUJI and pencil in your own dates so you don't have to buy a new planner every year.
     
  7. lucastoni

    lucastoni Fapstronaut

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    Pure chaos my friend.. PMO is getting to the point where I'm losing friends and wife, getting in debt, living in a messy place where stuff are broken. PMO is a demon that only makes us suffer.. the best thing we can do is leave it or keep suffering
     
  8. Hey brother just follow positivity and light in your life negativity darkness will be removed automatically.
    Just follow gods will love god become a noble healthy and positive person any type of negativity like addictions anxiety depression doubts chaos will be removed automatically.
    My life is also total mess right now but thank god I came to know that there is only one way to get out of any kind of addiction depression anxiety doubts is to value gods will and care about walking spiritual path.
    Thank u
     
  9. I was in the total chaos always thinking procrastinating leaving things
    Unfinished. Anxiety doubts depression suicidal thoughts and much more but I m grateful that I was 25 when I first came to know that when I totally surrender my life to gods path that is spiritual path. When I surrender I feel hope and relief.
     
  10. s.a.m.7766

    s.a.m.7766 Fapstronaut

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  11. ZORROW

    ZORROW Fapstronaut

    The 10 stages of rebooting.

    Stage 1
    : This is when we realize that masturbation is affecting our healthy negatively and we have a thought about quitting. However, after reading about the harmlessness theories of masturbation we are not so determined anymore, we think that masturbation in moderation should do us no harm. This is the very initial stage of rebooting which is characterized by ignorance and naivety. The result: failure!

    Stage 2: We gain a small understanding of the harmful effects of masturbation, but not a thorough understanding. The result: failure!



    Stage 3: We begin to study other peoples’ experience of rebooting and we try to break our rebooting record. Although we have managed to set a new record on the number of rebooting days we are still unable to break out of the vicious cycle. The result: failure!


    Stage 4: This is the confusion stage, after numerous failures, we start to doubt ourselves. At this stage, we are not putting in enough of a fight, no fight no victory! The result: failure.


    Stage 5: Our body gives out signals once again and it’s clear that our health has deteriorated. Once again we make up our minds to quit and rely helplessly on the brute force method without learning about the correct methods. The result: failure.


    Stage 6: We begin to see the harmlessness theory for what it is, that it only works to trick the “children”. This is when we experience a breakthrough in our way of thinking but we still fail to understand why we are unable to quit masturbation. The result: failure.


    Stage 7: This is the stage of understanding, gained from reading vast amounts of rebooting articles, we begin to acknowledge spiritual teachings (such as Buddhism) which helps to increase our determination tremendously, we break the 100-day streak. The result: still failure.


    Stage 8: The thorough cleansing stage, we are starting to cleanse ourselves both consciously and unconsciously. Once this idea has entered our subconscious we easily break the 200-day barrier. There may come one day when we are browsing the internet and have our guard down or we have been slack in our rebooting studies, we therefore stumble near the finishing line. The result: still failure.


    Stage 9: We are almost there now and have become even more careful, our understanding takes on another level. We are no longer affected by dirty thoughts, what we see do not enter our intentions, what other people sees and like we react with caution. We are steady in our heart even amidst rough winds of thoughts. We have discarded the habit of masturbation altogether.

    Stage 10: “Nothing to begin with, how can nothing stir the dust”. We have come to the highest stage where all things returns to simplicity, just as the “sweeping monk” from Jin Yong’s martial art novels. Great skill is hidden in plain site, this is only achieved by the Master. Tips: Everyone should be able to find their current stage in rebooting, just like in video games we have our levels, once we have reached that level success will come. If our level of understanding is not there we will have a hard time to quit masturbation, for a master there is no difficulty, while mastery is difficult to achieve for a layman. Hopefully, everyone will continue to study rebooting articles, the day when we find our “aha” moment is the day when we can walk away from masturbation for good. For the few bright people with keen minds, they are able to skip over stages just as a bright student is able to skip grades and the poor student will need to remain in the same grade.
     
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  12. thelitfit1

    thelitfit1 Fapstronaut

    I feel you bro. Especially during my reboot, I'm having contrasting highs and lows. One day I'll be high as a kite, spiritual af, feeling connected with the world. The next day, something I've suppressed from my subconscious comes up and puts me under crazy stress. Trust in the reboot though. "Smooth sailing never made a skilled sailor."
     

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