Does Anybody Else Not be able to physically masturbate or pleasure to porn?

I was on YouTube and I was browsing my subscribtions and

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Riley Reid was there. It’s odd because I do not recall ever subscribing to her at all. I went on her channel and instead of unsubscribing. I went on her about anf went on her XXX site

and I did begin to feel horny but after a couple minutes I began to physically feel sick. like I felt bad for those pornstars as this is what their life consists of. I felt bad that I by viewing them do these adultery things , I therefore ensure they do more. Like they could do so much good with their lived, but they choose to do porn. Why? Is that really there legacy? Back to my point. After seconds and minutes I began to feel very sick to my stomach while viewing that stuff. I stopped then and didn’t go further. My body seems to literally feel nauseous when I view adultery that isn’t my girlfriend. I never really blamed porn for my problems. Nor do I hate porn before but now I actually do hate pornography and the porn industry. All these good people who have so much potential just doing porn. I feel bad for them. Since stopping just recently I will never go back. The only reason I did recently was because for some reason she was on my subscribed list. I physically can’t view porn and edge or pleasure to it as it really does make my stomach feel nauseous. I find the act of porn gross if I’m honest. watching others do it is just gross to me. I only ever want to do it when my GF and I feel real true love. A special moment. I haven’t been on this forums on here or reddit because I have moved on from NoFap and relapses. If you read this far, thank you!