Does it sound like I'm bisexual? Or is it the HOCD talking?

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Omega909

Fapstronaut
I'm a 20 year old guy and always been straight I've never been sexually attracted to or emotionally to a guy. I've always pictured myself marrying a girl. I've always had crushes on girls and in fact right now and for the past year I've been obsessed with one. I felt horrible when I found out she didn't like me and was dating someone else now. Recently I've started to worry about if I'm bisexual. I don't want to be at all not even a little bit. I want to be 100% straight and feel like a man. Im almost certain I have it HOCD. A lot of the symptoms match what I have. I watch a lot lot of porn but I've cut back on it I masturbate a lot too. My desires have gotten more extreme not illegal or fucked up though. Well I started NoFap because I've read a lot of people have had there HOCD cured so I figured I'd give it a try. I was on my 4th day and relapsed. I watched porn again and did my business but it fucked with my HOCD because I got gay thoughts of guys jizzing and it's making me feel bisexual because I think I might've liked it but I was really horny from not jacking it for 4 days when I'm use to doing it like 2 or 3 times a day. I was feeling pretty confident I wasn't bi anymore until today. I never use to think about this shit though before I got HOCD. It was just all of a sudden. HOCD is making me feel like less of a man. I was going to try to talk to that girl again but I feel like I don't deserve her and it's killing my motivation for my career. Does it sound like I'm bi?
 
Omega909 said:
I'm a 20 year old guy and always been straight I've never been sexually attracted to or emotionally to a guy. I've always pictured myself marrying a girl. I've always had crushes on girls and in fact right now and for the past year I've been obsessed with one. I felt horrible when I found out she didn't like me and was dating someone else now. Recently I've started to worry about if I'm bisexual. I don't want to be at all not even a little bit. I want to be 100% straight and feel like a man. Im almost certain I have it HOCD. A lot of the symptoms match what I have. I watch a lot lot of porn but I've cut back on it I masturbate a lot too. My desires have gotten more extreme not illegal or fucked up though. Well I started NoFap because I've read a lot of people have had there HOCD cured so I figured I'd give it a try. I was on my 4th day and relapsed. I watched porn again and did my business but it fucked with my HOCD because I got gay thoughts of guys jizzing and it's making me feel bisexual because I think I might've liked it but I was really horny from not jacking it for 4 days when I'm use to doing it like 2 or 3 times a day. I was feeling pretty confident I wasn't bi anymore until today. I never use to think about this shit though before I got HOCD. It was just all of a sudden. HOCD is making me feel like less of a man. I was going to try to talk to that girl again but I feel like I don't deserve her and it's killing my motivation for my career. Does it sound like I'm bi?
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I’ve had similar experiences, you don’t sound bi. You sound like you’re straight and you’re just too into porn and masturbation, same as me. You have to give up porn and masturbation totally until you’re involved in a relationship with a girl and you’re comfortable and can perform sexually. That’s what I aiming for at least. But yeah you don’t sound bisexual. Too much porn pushes you to crazy thoughts to turn you on.
 
Omega909 said:
I'm a 20 year old guy and always been straight I've never been sexually attracted to or emotionally to a guy. I've always pictured myself marrying a girl. I've always had crushes on girls and in fact right now and for the past year I've been obsessed with one. I felt horrible when I found out she didn't like me and was dating someone else now. Recently I've started to worry about if I'm bisexual. I don't want to be at all not even a little bit. I want to be 100% straight and feel like a man. Im almost certain I have it HOCD. A lot of the symptoms match what I have. I watch a lot lot of porn but I've cut back on it I masturbate a lot too. My desires have gotten more extreme not illegal or fucked up though. Well I started NoFap because I've read a lot of people have had there HOCD cured so I figured I'd give it a try. I was on my 4th day and relapsed. I watched porn again and did my business but it fucked with my HOCD because I got gay thoughts of guys jizzing and it's making me feel bisexual because I think I might've liked it but I was really horny from not jacking it for 4 days when I'm use to doing it like 2 or 3 times a day. I was feeling pretty confident I wasn't bi anymore until today. I never use to think about this shit though before I got HOCD. It was just all of a sudden. HOCD is making me feel like less of a man. I was going to try to talk to that girl again but I feel like I don't deserve her and it's killing my motivation for my career. Does it sound like I'm bi?
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I feel the same way and it's really making me mad
 
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