Doing this for my future wife!

Hi my name is Hani and I have started watching porn and masturbating since I was 15, it causes health issues due to which I can't get proper erections and I cant maintain my erections without watching porn.

I have been on NoFap for 8 days and I must say it's very hard to get there, all these urges on my mind is getting me but I am thinking about my future wife what if can't give her proper performance what she deserves I shouldn't ruin his sex life because of my porn addiction. I hope will succeed in this mission and I want to stay away from pmo forever wish me luck!

 

I see my temptations are just my Android phone as I respect women and girls I don't look at them with bad eyes whenever they cross over in front of my eyes but in porn it's other story.
My urges went on peak when I'm home alone because at this time no one is here to see me so I just watch porn and fap to it. But due to excessive fapping I started having sex health issues as I mentioned above. Fear of these health problems is my plan to stay away from porn.
I'm trying to make my self as much busy as I can and make my self available for every work. Empty mind is a house if devil
If you have empty mind nothing to do then porn start to take you over so just make yourself busy.

 

As I am on day 9 now I have controlled my urges but it's getting harder and harder day by day the only thing I'm doing to control my urges are using my energy in doing creative things as I do painting so I spent my day in paining stuff.

 

Thanks for being here brother highly appreciated.

 

Day 11, not come here always bet when I do I don't forget to write something.
Now today I started to masturbate for a moment while having shower but suddenly when my senses came back I stopped it I'm ashamed that it's happened to me.
I'm doing this because my erections are weak and I'm not having morning woods but now morning woods came but bul they are weak too, if someone here who can comfort me by saying my erections will be hard after 90 or 180 days because I took a challenge of 180 days warriors challenge. And it's going pretty good seeing improvements but cat wait to see myself fully recovered, yes PIED is the cause which is in my head and I need to heal it before my wedding.

 

Here after two days, yes those days were busy days. Not feeling urges but in morning I do feel some but I had controlled the situation.
My energy is increased after 13 days feeling no pains in my legs (which I feel sometimes) dull of energy, morning wood is coming back but not strong enough sometimes it comes sometimes it not. But seeing improvements.

 

Day 14 want to fall but no I won't and I will divert my mind from it.

 

Day 15, busy day today and much more busy day tomorrow not enough time to eat something so how can I think about porn or fap.
Ingredient to NoFap is keep yourself busy.

 

Thursday, day 17 lol I didn't even know I can come this far.
I started to have random erections at any time. Though they are not long but it's coming back and I think my brain is started to rewrite itself slowly, that is the time I have to stop myself.
I can see light at the end of tunnel.