I see lots of posts of people who have been on longer abstinence streaks and are now playing with the thought that it's maybe OK to PMO in moderation now and then. Don't fool yourself! Poking the sleeping dragon in a hope that he died is never a good idea. I can tell you from my own experience what is most likely to happen if you continue on this path… You'll do it more and more often, then maybe some stressful event will occur in your life and you'll do some more to ease the stress and before you'll know it, you'll be hooked again. The same thing happened to me in May 2018 after +6 months of monk mode. I thought I was finally "healed" so went to a long holidays to reward myself a bit, holidays turned to shit (arguments, lost friends etc.) and when I came home all stressed out with shattered self-esteem, I thought to myself well watching a bit of P to calm my nerves down can do me no harm. I PMOed once that day, then again once or twice the next and the next and so on all without compulsions. Step by step down the road, thinking I have everything under control, until a month later I realized I'm in binge PMO rabbit hole again and can't get out of it. It wasn't until August (3 months later) until I gathered enough mental strength to stop the binge and force myself to start rebooting process again and another 5 months of tries and failures before I was able to start my current monk mode streak. I needed to go through all the acute withdrawal symptoms hell and PAWS all over again, like my previous half year of abstention never happened. I've learned what happened a few months later when watching a lecture about neuroscience of addiction. When we binge PMO for long time, our brains create deep learned behavior (addiction). In physical form this behavior manifests itself as creation of neurological pathway literally physically engraved in our brains. Neuropathway makes this behavior automatic, excluding part of the brain that is in charge of rational thinking (that's why addicts report effect of narrow awareness-tunnel vision while doing it). Behaviour becomes preconditioned; you get stressed out you PMO, U see P you MO without thinking rationally about it. When we abstain for a certain amount of time from PMO behavior (abstention) PMO pathway enters in dormant state. It's still there and it will most probably stay with us for life, but it's inactive. Compulsions and cravings stop. We regain self control over action. BUT as soon as we PMO again we start playing with fire, because we risk "waking up" dormant pathway. The other problem is that addiction pathways are REALLY strong and wide, think of them as information highways and the neuropathways we create to replace old PMO neuropathway with are narrow paths. Over the years of practicing these "good" habits will become highways themselves, further weakening dormant PMO pathway but you're not there yet. That takes years. IF you reactivate PMO neuropathway your newly established behaviours you developed to battle the addiction will have no chance against it as brain's electrical impulses always choose the easiest/widest road possible. You will be back on PMO autopilot before you know it. That is why people who had addiction problems need to stay humble and vigilant all of their lives.