Don't actually knnow what has left in me.

it's been long since i have posted anything.
when i first came here i was super confident and full of optimisim and sure it lasted for 21 days.
But from then 2 months have passed away and still today i'm struggling to get back on a streak of atleast seven days.
and this time it's driving me crazy cuz i'm putting too much thoughts on it.
I've tried almost everything in my knowledge but nothing seems to be working.
My test levels are also going down for first time and i used to laugh at people telling get hard on while watching porn i was like how this is even possible bro....
But now i understand when it's happening to me and i think that this is the sign that i've depleted myself so such that now body doesn't work properly everyday has become boring same old shit.
this time i'm watching porn for no reason i just watch it and i end up jerking off. This shit is embarrassing.
But there is something inside that says to me that oneday i will get to the point of no masterbation.
and that day i will find peace.
I'm ten times more depressed than i look in this thread.
Peace out

 

don't punch your dick bruv. rather just shout at it if it could help