I've been lurking here for some time now. I see guys who still have hope. I know it's over for me now. I've been at the PMO game for over 25 years. I used to fap to climax 5-7 times a day in my prime. This was in my early 20s. I'm going to be 36 in a few weeks. This habit finally destroyed me. I suffer daily now with constant anxiety, depression, fatigue, back tension and pains, no motivation, and barely any sexual desire anymore towards women. My appetite sucks, digestion awful, sleep all broken up, friends and family I alienate as much as possible so they dont see me suffer. My hormones are shot, my blood pressure 180 over 120 constantly. I feel death knocking on my door. I have accepted it. I'm making this post so that maybe itll wake people up that still can become something. I was very intelligent, creative, hard working, had goals... it's just not possible for me anymore to achieve. I have enough money saved and itll probably last me before I die. I'm estimating I have less than a year left. I've accepted it. I messed up big time. I just couldnt stop PMOing until exhaustion. Hopefully this scares 1 person straight. Dont end up like me. I am a big loser. 2 failed serious relationships, a young kid I made that is moved away from me, a life I wasted. I did a lot of hard drugs too. Point is we only get one life. Live it to the fullest. Be a good strong man. I wish I could go back in time knowing what I know now. It's been my one wish. I swear I would have never started PMO at age 10.