All of us have a deep fear inside of us and that is the fear of relapsing. It is the most scary thing we can imagine,especially if a person has been abstaining for wks, months or even years. What we do not realize is that by abstaining from PMO for those number of days, even if we relapse we have actually changed a lot about our brain chemistry, and we are not the same as before when we started abstaining!. I remember very well in 2012, I decided on my 18th birthday that I will never fall back into this cycle. I did some exercises outside with my friends on daily basis.I was always with my friends studying or making stories and rarely alone just to keep myself busy, and sometimes I even resorted to extreme means like fasting and consuming less food and drinks just to keep my libido at all time low. After all this effort I relapsed having been clean for 75 days. This made me frustrated and mad at myself.I started engaging in more PMO online with laptop or my phone and even the situation got worse for months to follow.... The biggest mistake I made at that time which I want to share with everybody was not relapsing but giving up! If I had quickly pulled myself together after the first relapse and started recovery immediately, still it would not have been too late to complete the journey to freedom. But that rarely happens because we think we need to start from day 1 again! which is the mentality we need to change in order to break free.MY advice to everybody including myself is to always remember failure is not relapsing, failure is to give up!