This was one of my greatest mental breakthroughs in my opinions. I always feel somewhat uncomfterable with women, like i'm constantly trying to impress them, thinking what to say. Yesterday, at new year's party, we were at a friend's place, just hanging out, makeing some food, there were obviously drinks and stuff, he invited alot of people. I feel that this evening which was already yesterday for me, its 1PM now, was like a personal rock concert, what i mean to say was i felt so good, so natural with myself, it's like all my inner inhibitions just disappeared! I couldn't care less what the girls think about me, i mean, i did want them to like me, but it was not my holy grail like before, i spoke really natural with them, i was so witty, so playful, i actually made every one of them laugh (might had to do with them drinking...). Nevertheless, i felt like i could say anything i want, i made some spicy sexual puns and stuff and i think they really appreciate a guy whos not afraid to talk about sexuality with them. You might think to yourself: ''what does he get himself all worked up for? no big deal''. But to me it was something i wished for a very, very long time. I had about 3-4 girls all over me the evening, touching me constantly, now, i won't credit their alcohol for that, because i've been at parties before... and the way i used to be, i wasn't touched and communicated even by girls who drank. With all the lows i feel lately this was one of the all time natural highs i have ever felt. Might i add, i was not drinking, i don't smoke weed or cigarettes, all naturaly and no ''boosters''. one of the girls actually asked me why i don't drink, i told her that it's because i don't need it to fell good with myself, i don't need a tool to open up, i did it all by myself! now, it got to a very late hour, i woke up early that day, and the night before i didn't get much sleep, so the tiredness might have help with removing inhibitions. now after i wake up i still recall that natural high, and i don't know if that was now the new me, if you understand what i'm saying, it's something that happens to me sometimes. I think it's just something i longed for a long time... some female attention and affection... Just having cuddle me or just put their hand on my legs gives me such a natural high, and it's not even horniness of wanting to fuck them, touch feel very rewarding, i am quite touchy with my friends even, because it feel good haha, actuall human emotion. I hope that this wasn't a one time deal, anyway. I hope to continue with this path. Yesterday i was only on day 2 NF. This quite reinforced my belief that gaining long streaks isn't the cure for all my problems. TL;DR: i had a natural high at a new years eve party, getting female attention and affection all over the place, having no inhibitions and being very openly sexual, like casually offering a threesome to two good looking girls, with good context, of course... Make them crack up and feel somewhat shy but in a cute way, maybe they wanted to? finally feeling female attention and touch, feeling wanted by females, hit me on a spot i was wanting for a loooooong time.... I'd actually love to hear what you think, if you have insights on how i changed that rapidly, hopefully not just for that one night.