I finally "came out" to my coworker today. I told him I was dealing with a masturbation addiction to porn. He wasn't rude or disrespectful, but his process of trying to understand where I was coming from completely triggered me into doubting myself. He kept bringing up contradictory ideas to what I saying forcing me to defend myself and when I have to defend myself I have to think and when I have to think I usually fail because my thinking process is far too sluggish and uncoordinated to do a good job or even to feel like I did a good job speaking my views appropriately. He kept questioning whether porn and masturbation was really the cause of how I was feeling. I got really defensive because I hate it when people treat this problem like it's all in my head. But truth is, I don't know for sure why my brain feels the way it does. I remember as a kid I felt the same sense of "stupid" I do now. I know whenever binge on porn I feel worse in the way I usually feel in my head so that's got to be saying something. But I still can't seem to hang on to the sense that YES MY PMO HABIT HAS CAUSED SOME NASTY SIDE EFFECTS. Does anyone else feel doubt about the source of how they feel regularly? It seems to happen to me often.