Dreadful !

Stop stop till you stop...i tried and failed many times but i am still tryin, till i loose count of the days i have abstained

 

Take a deep breath and calm down. Wallowing in regret won't help at all. You can do this.
I suggest you make a battle plan: Go back and retrace your steps: Why did you relapse? What triggered you? What can be done about those triggers? Are you using your time in a positive manner or lounging about all day doing nothing? Look for stuff to do. It's not just about taking your mind off of PMOing, it's also about re-learning to live like a normal, healthy person. Seriously, think about how you're going to do this step by step. You can do this. Good luck!

 

You did the right thing coming on here. Regain control brother. Block adult websites on all devices and start again. Try and learn a little of why you relapsed and how you can do things better.

 

Reduce PC time
workout/cold showers (consistently)

 

The only person on your team right now is you. When you turn on yourself and start fighting with you, you lose the only thing you got. And then the problem wins. Stay true to your team. Never let yourself down no matter how many times you fail. You will get there.

 

Every second you spend not giving into PMO is a win and a step in the right direction. If you can abstain for a second you can do a minute. If you can do a minute you can do an hour. If you can do an hour you can do a day. If you can do a day you can do a week, if you see where im going with this.