dream journal

Dream journal starts on page two

I created this to help me lucid dream and gain control of wet dreams

Hello, thank you for coming

welcome to my poetry corner

here’s a cup of

your favorite drink

I want you to know

I love you

I love everyone

such is the way of the Pema

but don’t push me

 

Well being positive is tiresome

I guess it’s a muscle

Just gotta keep releasing the pressure

I change a lot but I’m getting consistent with some things like work and my training.

 

Hmmm

Making up my mind is an evolving process

I must keep learning

Evolving and growing is important, I’m glad for this time in monk mode.

 

Meditation is key

so is reading scripture

at least for me right now

My morning routine is becoming legendary, I’m getting closer to returning to the gym.

 

Practicing jump rope

gonna try and do it

For real at the gym

I’m actually kind of good at jump rope, I can do all kinds of tricks and double unders when I practice.

 

This is for myself

So I can have poems

that don’t disappear

if others like it that’s nice, but not necessary

 

have you played clash of clans?

 

yes I have. I stopped playing games a while back though.

 

Awaiting my medication

ready to deal with side effects

may it all go well


I could use some water

 

Do you by chance know a guy called sunjok in clash of clans?

 

No

 

Building from the inside out

Relaxing paying off

How about that ?

I’m pretty full off my vegetarian breakfast

 

Well gotta just

become a good semen holder

Now is not the time

to be thinking about

or looking at

girls

it’s just time to

figure out how to be

maintaining a long

semen retention

streak

dedicated to legumes

honey kefir and apples


Alright that’s enough. Eating hot sauce at night messed me up. Sharing my nofap practices with others messed me up. I will only talk to people about my nofap stuff who will adequately support it and actually have a streak themselves.

 

Are you from Sikkim(India)?

 

America.

 

I’m depressed right now

I have to do more japa

and less aphrodisiac things

just waiting on my book to come next week

when you relapse

you lose all your merit

I’ll look back on my failures one day and see them as minor learning experiences in the grand scheme of my life.

 

Waking up at 4am

guess I’ll do it fit a while

see how it goes

amazing how good it feels

waking up early

people are more nice

I feel like anything is possible

with all this time

in the morning

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Rainbows and shades of grey

Graphite and color

Can we all work together

to make a pretty picture?

Keep swimming

stay afloat

stay alive

Stroke breathe stroke

I will live on

I won’t let the darkness pull me under

Three threads? Am I being too greedy? Maybe just enough idk. I’ll keep it extra short weekdays. 333. I shaved my head, I am one punch man

 

I dreamt I was in a cyberpunk reality version of my own life. I was this virgin Esque person. And there was a prostite that my friend was familiar with. She had scars and cybernetic parts but was still beautiful. Her pimp a female with tattoos. Saw the future that it I had sec with her pro the pro would turn into a bat like creature. I said I wouldn’t sleep with her. Outside were cops and a helicopter looking for criminals. I was afraid to go outside to take out the trash at night.

I woke up periodically and pulled out of the dream to do my japa to prevent any lust. I thought something like ‘I’m getting more professional and I don’t like it.’


Interpretation : in real life I’m getting more professional. I’ve been a very casual person most of my life. Using lots of slang and substances in my youth. No needles.

I guess the dream represents that I am not wanting to sleep with women just for the sex. And that maybe I recognize it’s not good for the woman to do so. Represented by the pro turning into a bat if I slept with her and no one wanting that. Also I could use a bit more japa maybe to sleep through


So stuff is still a struggle

with the skin

but I’m trying to do skin hypnosis

and minimize social interaction

while still doing some minimum stuff

because that helps

life is hard but

life is nice too

I want to live to 100 or more

I like having a journal

I can be different

and it’s normal



I’ll only journal privately on paper though. Otherwise it tends to get out of control. Something about isolating on a screen for too long.

I don’t want the world to see me

cuz I don’t think that they’d understand

my flaws

skinny acne

told I’m insecure by my parents and ex

Still I feel pretty

 

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