Dreaming about my dead Father....

Welcome to the club, not so long ago my dad passed away too. I can relate to you. I also very often have dreams where he's alive, then i wake up feeling very sad. I remember once in a dream I even asked my brother something like "why is he here since we were at his funeral?". I guess its just some kind of longing or denial. Be strong man, I am strong.

 

I also dream my dead father some time...some time two time in two nights. I accepted it from the beginning, no denial, i just let his soul go away, so don't know why, maybe i'm just disappointed he's gone so fast (1 month or less). Last time i dream him we were taking a Tea cup togheter.

 

You actually do meet your dad, friend. It's him communicating that you are not just a bag of meat, and that you are not alone, ever. That a physical body is not necessary for love, because it never was contained there to begin with.
And when you feel terrible afterwards - that's because of the contrast of the condition you are in normally, in waking state, in comparison to how you need to feel in order to "meet" (communicate with) your father.
A graphic example would be you needing to spread your wings to meet him in in heaven, but in order to participate in Earthly life, you need to compress your awareness. So it's like being pushed through a narrow tube while your wings are spread - it hurts until you readjust. It's only a figurative example, but still not a good one.
I'm aware that few will believe what I'm saying until they experience it, but I don't care. What "compresses" you is the emotional state you're in, of which you let go sometimes in your sleep. If you become happier in general when you are awake, the difference won't be so dramatic. Nothing terrible is going on, all your struggles are temporary, just as your body is.

 

Im really sorry to hear. I'm not big on spiritualism or anything but a part of me feels like its some way of him reaching out to you. I felt sad just reading your pain. Just try and stay strong for him. Its tough losing someone so close but we just have to accept it and just try to manage. Its easier said than done. Just stay strong friend. He would want you to be strong for him.

 

Brother make them proud, be a good human and make prayer to Allah for them.