Dreams that involve the NoFap Way

Hi all,

I am starting this thread to dive deeper into dreams that have to do with NoFap. It is my belief that dreams are a bridge between the subconscious and conscious mind and that they can be used to help us balance our lives and experiences. Since we are all trying to overcome an addiction I think it is important to start really observing dreams that have to do with nofap. I am asking people to add their dreams, as this can be a safe place for us to anonymously share and learn through each others experiences on the dream bridge.

I had just finished a 28 day streak when I slipped back into PMO over the last few days. Last night I decided to have one last fap before turning back to the nofap highway. When I went to bed....

Dream Journal and Analysis
Dream about my gf's mom looking over my shoulder while i was on my phone, and for some reason there was a mandala, or fractal pattern that was pinkish and other light warm colors (valentines dayish) and reminded me of some hello kitty stuff which is weird bc that is not even a trigger of mine. In the middle of the pink spiral type thing was a women's vagina. I immediately was self conscious and embarrassed that her mom saw me looking at this. I think I ended up waking from this dream due to that anxiety or more likely the dream just ended. I don't recall in the dream looking at this on my phone, rather I felt a feeling of where did this come from why was it on my phone.

This dream was drawn from memories of several days earlier when I was scrolling instagram and a bikini model popped up while my gf's dad was glancing over my shoulder.

Directly related to the 'pussy on a pedastool' saying, my life has been far too dedicated to the importance that I put on sexual desires. Having sexual relationship is important to me but more important is a loving and caring relationship, so I need to let that reflect in my every day life rather than constantly searching for any sort of pleasure stimulated from a sexual desire.

This dream was a way for me to spiritual digest the blockages that have been affecting me. It ended the few days in my life that I again had chosen to live with vagina as the center of my universe, and as the creator. While in a physical sense this is true to an extent, I suppose, I highly doubt that in a spiritual sense it is the reality. Rather it served as a visual representation of the reality that some live their lives with, and I am now trying to live life in a different way.

This dream I was clearly dealing with the orange ray blockage that is occurring within my spiritual energy complex, and to a lesser extent red ray. I personally have raging hormones, therefor think most of my sexual energy blockages are related to my orange ray. Apparently I am still dealing with the same thing I was dealing with 8 years ago when I worked with a light worker in Peru who told me that my sacral chakra was unbalanced. The dream signified the mental shift that occurred again for me when I decided that last night was the last fap for a while. I am searching for the true fractal or the true mandala of spiritual life, not some cartoon animated or physically amazing version of the illusion of the 3rd density that we are currently living in.

I mean at the end of this life and subsequent lives do we want to look around and see the spiritual beauty that is everywhere or do we want to look up and see a vagina?