Hey guys, I'm new here in the forum but I already am doing NoFap for 37 days now. I have done the hard mode, so without any ejaculation but, admittedly, one, so far. It's been a good journey but hell no, not easy 
I can proudly say that I feel so pulled towards my girlfriend like almost never before and for once in my life i can honestly say, that I do love her. NoFap definitely pointed my focus towards her and put her into the center of my desire.
Anyway, to me it was a breaking moment, when I heard about the PMO Problem the frist time - 37 days ago. Eversince it changed the way I think about that topic, especially about Porn. Since that moment I have no intention whatsoever to watch any kind of porn. I have to admit, whenever I see erotic pictures or something, of course it turns me on and I get excited, but I do not intentionally go and visit those sites anymore, but the disire to "get off some steam" still lasts and so I try to channel my energy into writing and I wanted to ask you guys, whether you think that is okay or just another form of "porn".
So, here's the thing: I am in an exchange semster at the moment, so I cannot have sex with my girlffriend eitherway but I do have this creativity, well kinky creativity and I enjoy to just write down my sexual dreams and desires into small stories and then send it to my gf. I already wrote a book over 50 pages for her and it is quite detailed, explicit and could be seen as a written porn movie and some stuff is pretty hardcore. Now, I feel, that I get almost as excited to write that stuff as I was to see that stuff but I don't masturbate to it. Do you think this way of "channeling" the thoughts and energy is good or should I also refrain from that? Thanks for your thoughts about that topic!
PS: I also had the thought of "cyber-sex" with her, if I would decide to deviate from the hard mode- would cyber sex then count as watching porn for me? what if she just looks while I do it and I just see her face or so (that would already turn me on)?
I can proudly say that I feel so pulled towards my girlfriend like almost never before and for once in my life i can honestly say, that I do love her. NoFap definitely pointed my focus towards her and put her into the center of my desire.Anyway, to me it was a breaking moment, when I heard about the PMO Problem the frist time - 37 days ago. Eversince it changed the way I think about that topic, especially about Porn. Since that moment I have no intention whatsoever to watch any kind of porn. I have to admit, whenever I see erotic pictures or something, of course it turns me on and I get excited, but I do not intentionally go and visit those sites anymore, but the disire to "get off some steam" still lasts and so I try to channel my energy into writing and I wanted to ask you guys, whether you think that is okay or just another form of "porn".
So, here's the thing: I am in an exchange semster at the moment, so I cannot have sex with my girlffriend eitherway but I do have this creativity, well kinky creativity and I enjoy to just write down my sexual dreams and desires into small stories and then send it to my gf. I already wrote a book over 50 pages for her and it is quite detailed, explicit and could be seen as a written porn movie and some stuff is pretty hardcore. Now, I feel, that I get almost as excited to write that stuff as I was to see that stuff but I don't masturbate to it. Do you think this way of "channeling" the thoughts and energy is good or should I also refrain from that? Thanks for your thoughts about that topic!
PS: I also had the thought of "cyber-sex" with her, if I would decide to deviate from the hard mode- would cyber sex then count as watching porn for me? what if she just looks while I do it and I just see her face or so (that would already turn me on)?