I have experienced 'pied' and absent libido for 21 years. I an going to try to reboot and will post any progress but I fear I may be a forever ed case. I am extremely distraught over this notion. My pathetic experience started in a different way than many on this forum. When i was 16 i met a weird girl who loved phone sex. Since I wasn't getting any actual sex at the time I became a willing participant. It was ok at first but I took it too far having phone sex nearly everyday for 9 months? Thats when I noticed first that my erections started to be way weaker and mo's were way less plesurable. Then I noticed nothing turned me on anymore not even hardcore porn when just a year earlier a fully clothed attractive woman could do the trick anytime. I failed to get any type of erection with my first 3 rl partners after that but finally was able to have sex on 4th attempt but it totally sucked and was devoid of pleasure. I stayed with that partner for a couple of years having pleasureless sex. Then we broke up and I havent been able to have sex since. Only being able to get 50 percent erections then compared to now when even watching porn..practically nothing. I have been extemely depressed since 2002 being the only person I knew with this condition. I got to the point where I voluntarily hospitalized myself under the recommendation of my ex. While there i was misdiagnosed bipolar and forced to take drugs which lead to an extremely painful reaction called akathisia which lasted 6 monrhs. This completely burned me out mentally and physically and I have never been able to recover actually. All things considered I just gave up on life. I quit work and school. Applied for disability and got it. And just existed kind of just waiting out the clock 40 yrs too soon. I discovered ybop.com a few years ago but never really implemented its recommendations. Like a true loser i pmo to no pleasure. This year finally i decided i wanted to try a reboot. I know ill never have sex again(im on ssi and on a waiting list to live in a tower with the elderly and disabled..so you can do thr math) but i just thought it would be nice just to feel sexual again. Just to be attracted to women and maybe feel desire would be ok. One roadblock is that I will have to take a drug that blocks dopamine until I get my apartment. So Im not sure rebooting will even work another thing against me is my age and the severity and duration of my ed and libido loss.. To sum up if you were me would you even try a reboot that Im assuming will take years and will at best leave me with desire but no chance at a gf at the end of all this. Do you think I can even be healed in my case. Or should i just give up and accept my fate. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated.