When an erotic thought comes into my head during the day I find it easy enough to just say STOP and think about something else. This is so much harder when in bed trying to fall asleep. I think this comes from force of habit and being so used to rubbing one out and falling asleep directly after. I've been on NoFap for 19 days now, and the 3 times that I have relapsed have been in this situation. I can't control my thoughts getting away from me. All it takes is 10 seconds of fantasizing and I'm fully aroused. Last night was horrible. I made the mistake of checking out a girl on facebook that I was really attracted to and could NOT get her out of my head. My usual technique of stopping and saying out loud what my goals were (1. job that I don't despise 2. independance from my parents, 3. make friends, 4. get a girlfriend and 5. lose my virginity), repeating to myself why I need to do this didn't work at all, but I was determined not to relapse again. So I pulled it out from under the sheets (so it wouldn't rub against anything) and played out the fantasy in my head and let it run its course. Even just fantasizing like that is so pleasurable. When I was done I poured cold water on my boner so it would go down. Soon after I realized how weak and vulnerable I am that some bimbo (she's a really hot girl with nothing in her head) can have such power over me. Next time should I just try to fight the thoughts harder or was this a good idea? I guess this would be considered as edging but I feel like its the only thing I could have done. Thoughts anyone?