Sup guys, I've been so trapped in this cycle of edging. I want to know your thoughts on it and any potential practical ways I could break this. What my issue is is that I've gotten really good at tricking myself and making my rational mind shut up so that I could get a little peak at some P***. I don't fully PMO but I excessively P and M, then stop myself before I orgasm. Last night was awful, going from about 1AM to 6AM – 5 HOURS – of just edging. Last week, before my last relapse, I was edging for hours everyday for 8 days straight! I don't know guys. Sometimes when I do this, I tell myself "No I can still redeem myself and stop now", then I'll go for a few hours (sometimes minutes) clean and then bam, I've got another video loaded up. I know this is really dangerous and is borderline sexual suicide. I've read some people's posts from the past saying that you need to fully relapse because its too late or that you need to MO without P and reset yourself. There's a split in the community on what people think of edging and it seems kinda controversial. It's confusing to me. I feel like every time I try to keep going after an edging session, I just end up looking up some more, worse, more stimulating, inappropriate videos for much longer sessions. I usually end up doing this after a few days clean but with really hard urges. It feels like I don't have any control, like I've been possessed. When I'm in these edging loops, I have no energy to do ANYTHING but watch more videos. I sleep around all day, trying to get a little work done here and there but when I feel an urge, it charges me up like crazy and I fall back into bad habits and edge. I can't get my mind off the videos I'm craving. The urges get so bad, making my heart beat so intensely, my whole body gets hot and I sometimes try to channel this energy into something good but it gets too much to handle. I mostly feel these urges at night, right as my mind is slipping into sleep. But sometimes they hit during the day, usually when I'm tired or when I'm in the middle of some work. When I feel the urges I start impulsively edging, despite knowing I have work to do, despite my better judgement, despite the efforts I've made to stay clean. Worst of all is that I can literally HEAR myself, in my mind, saying "Stop, you're making a mistake, don't do it" and still just forcefully shut myself up and ignore it. I feel insane. What do I do? Should I at least try to push forward, make an effort not to edge anymore and just keep my streak going. Or do I reset at this point and just give in and let myself PMO? or MO? How do I prevent these edging cycles before they even happen? What do you guys do when dealing with cravings and urges? Help me out please, what do you guys think?