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Edging + video games

Discussion in 'Compulsive Sexual Behavior' started by Deleted Account, Jul 16, 2020.

  1. Few months ago I had been indulged in success stories forum, constantly bragging about my progress and amazed by trajectory, I thought I found my way out of this darkness, I thought I have been healed and will never get back to those darkness once more, but here i am, back to the problematic sexual behavior section. I have relapsed after about 70 days of strict monk mode, and i was not just healing from porn, I was getting my life back, I was exercising regularly, eating healthily, reaching up to friends, cracking up jokes, embracing my family and enjoying their company more than ever, not ashamed to tell my story to anyone, I was proud of myself and I felt really good, I was also reaching up to my therapist and we spoke on the phone regularly. I was keeping up with my accountability partner. the first relapse did not broke me at all, I decided to get back on track again but with multiple relapses, I decided to quit my antidepressant as i felt it was making me so comfortable, I stopped talking to my therapist, I stopped opening up and felt so empty inside, I have been also procrastinating studying for my exams which is after 1 month and is quite challenging, i started playing video games on my phone and wasting my time watching Youtube videos and all sort of irrelevant material. However, recently I have got back to my darkest habits, watching transgender and even homosexual videos, edging for hours and hours and hours. I have spent now about 2 days of multiple edging episodes intersected by video games on my phone, without even taking a shower, I stincked. I felt that I have already lost my path and my belief in myself, I feel so empty and shallow, I feel secluded from my friends, from my community and from my family, I despise myself and the circumstances, I hate myself for falling back when I had solid grounds.
     
  2. Prince6543

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    So should we not masturbate even after completing 90 days. Will we still get addicted to that dark porn world?
     
  3. Thank you for sharing. I had a similar experience, but I am finally climbing back up. You can do it too, just don't hate yourself!
     
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  4. Snickerss

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    Well I'd think of it as... an addict, always an addict. It's incredibly easy to get hooked on it again, just like a drunk person with alcohol - better to even avoid the bar.

    To the guy who made this post - Climb out of it, you can do it. I'm currently in the same hole, trying to find the motivation to try and get out of it. I'm switch.
     
  5. elvagoazul

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    Recently I relapsed after 92 days, I wouldn't recomend it. It was probably the most difficult time this year.
    Don't focus on the 90 days, it is just a number. Focus instead on achieving every week.
     
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  6. Prince6543

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    This shit scares me. Pleaee dont say that you mean permanent NoFap
     
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  7. Shuffledude88

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    That is the only way as I see it. Focusing on short-term success is in a way just like the short-term pleasure porn gives you. Reach from within you, why return to the thing which have limited you for so long and ripped your potential and emotional freedom away?

    Why choose captivity when you can choose freedom?
     
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  8. elvagoazul

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    Don't worry about that. When you reach 2 months, PMO is the last thing you think about (most of the time). Oviously I don't mean Nofap for ever, we are not monks. But 90 days, it is just a number. we need to do nofap until we are recovered. I was a porn addict for 5 years, maybe I need more time or another streak of 90 days in order to recover.
     
  9. Prince6543

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    Yeah I am almost about to reach 2 months and NoFap is nothing for me now. But how will you find that you are recovered. In my case I had a foot fetish and wasn't able to have normal sex, so I decided to do NoFap to rewire my brain to sex and other NORMAL parts instead of foot. So how will I know that I am recovered. I was not really a porn addict but definitely a masturbation addict. I watched porn for just 3 years before I started NoFap now
     
  10. Di.Do.555

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    What you are going through is part of the journey. It is not a failure.
    What triggered your anxiety?
    Have u started thinking big?
    Have you stirred old wounds?
     
  11. verbeek75

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    It's not about masturbating it's about masturbating and orgasming watching porn. porn is the thing that need to go, preferably permantly, you don't need to watch porn for anything no one does. There is nothing wrong with sex with a real person, you can have sex even during nofap.
    Your brain just needs to reset itself, how long it takes is different for everybody.
     
  12. I look at it like any other addiction heroin alcohol etc. once it’s become a problem that effects your personal life you should quit and never look back.
     
  13. Prince6543

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    Are you referring to just porn addiction or masturbation addiction too ?
     
  14. Prince6543

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    So Is it ok to masturbate without watching porn? Have you ever tried it?
     
  15. Shuffledude88

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    There are no set rules for what is okay or not per say. But like the previous speaker said - everything which is a problem and hurts you and are harmfull for you must go permanently. I would say in 99% of the cases masturbation is linked to porn in some way, even if it’s only through the mind. I’m not taking any chances. Masturbstion isn’t natural and is a way of escapism just like porn and also hurts your brain. Those filthy sessions isn’t worth it compared to everything you gain without it. Look at the big picture and stop sesrching for shortcuts.
     
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  16. verbeek75

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    You have porn and masturbation addiction, I would abstain from both at least for a good few months, never watch porn, masturbation afterwards it will depend on yourself. I had no problem after I think of abstaining for 6 months, I only mastubated mostly once a week after, occasionally twice, no edging. Didn't have the urge to do more and sometimes just skip a week or 2, as before it was daily of hours of edging.
    Normal sex with someone should be okay, even can help.
     
  17. Prince6543

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    That's what I thought. But some experienced legends here were claiming that masturbation just how you mentioned will also make you addict. This made me confused lately
    BTW, what made you think I am an addict of these both?
     
  18. Prince6543

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    You have to fantasize ti masturbate unless you are a superhuman. And the best you can fantasize about is sex. So you're indirectly definitely fantasizing about sex as porn
     
  19. Shuffledude88

    Shuffledude88 Fapstronaut

    What I'm saying is that I personally believe that masturbation is something destructive also. I wouldnt be able to recover with masturbation in my life. If you are serious about your reboot and recovery, I would encourage you to keep away. But that's only what I think, don't wanna judge anyone else.
     
  20. Prince6543

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    What I can agree with is masturbation and porn go hand in hand. Even though you are masturbating in your own but every time you do, you will feel that urge ti watch porn which can become uncontrollable in stressful situations
     
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