Does anyone else wonder what their life would have played out like. if they had not been same sex abused when young? I often wonder if this hadn’t happened what would it have been like to have had a normal sexual development. I think of all the years I struggled to put it in place. I’m ok now but I’m 71. I just wonder how nice it would have been to just been able to spend my mental energy focused on accomplishing things rather than my identity.