Ego gets stronger after relapse

[Stand_in_Defiance]

Hi friends,

I've noticed that after I MO, in the days/weeks following my Ego get's stronger and in a negative way - I'm more unhappy with my own position in relation to others, I have more self doubt and more negative self belief in general.

Last time I was up to 45 days - these feelings were greatly diminished.

Does anyone else experience this too?

 

[Always Keep Going]

Yes, an unchecked ego can be a source of depression, which masturbation promotes. I recently just slipped up and am having to deal with drowsiness and some slight amount of such depression. It's as if instantly, from the first second you revert back to old habits, that you begin to realize the extent of your condition and compare such a lifestyle against others'.

 

[Stand_in_Defiance]

Yes, I'm experiencing a similar thing right now - I'm hoping the depression/overactive ego won't be as strong as the last time I was in flatline.

Have you made it to 90 days before? I'm determined to get there this time. Haven't watched Porn since Nov 2020. But still find MO draining in the few times I've done it.