Hi advanced Fapstronauts! So, basically, after reaching my goal of 100 days streak, i felt like i should give it a try and see where i am with ejaculation, and sex in general, because i feel like i should have a wife and not be single. I hoped to see improvement with my post ejaculatory issues. Of course not ejaculate a lot but a few times a month, just to get a sex life. There i should mention that i am someone who heavily suffers from post ejaculation effects, even while being a very moderate masturbator for years with only a few girldfriends, i get huge health and energy impact from sex. Anyway so i thought after 102 days, i could afford a little let go and sort of study the after effects, just to know where i am and what i can allow myself. It did not come from urges or anything, just the will to change and be able to have a normal sex life. You would think that after 102 of no ejaculation whatsoever, you wouldn't suffer from one ejaculation. (which was quite important in volume by the way :X). WRONG. I noticed 2 important symptoms, but in a way that is good because i know more about this issue and its impacts. -Insomnia : i am absolutely certain, without any doubt, that ejaculation tend to create insomnia. It is a state of alertness and fatigue at the same time. Because i am in a good period, very healthy and energetic after 3 months of nofap, i did not feel tired after orgasm but i however felt that weird alertness. I now very much believe it is linked to hormonal changes happening during orgasm. I did a bit of research on the internet and i saw a website, and apparently it has to do with dopamine, melatonine, adrenalyne and epiphretine or something like that. All these hormones are burned up or transformed during orgasm and for some reason it leaves you in a weird state, where you canno't sleep and feel irritable and moody. I want to stress that for 3 months, i had maybe 1 or 2 bad nights, all linked to external stress factor or exhaustion, like sleeping in my car after driving 10 hours. I am very experienced with insomnia and i know where it comes from in my case, some kind of body unbalance. I can feel if i am going to sleep well or not. - lower back pain: I definitively feel pain in my lower back after orgasm. Not right away after ejaculation, but the following night and hours. I thought it was fatigue, but no, it is really created by ejaculation only. After reading this website wich describes exactly what i feel, i don't have any doubt about it. It has to do with kidneys inflammation because of hormones being messed up. http://www.herballove.com/guide/lower-back-pain-caused-over-masturbation Please note that i am not talking some random shit, i really am 100 % sure thoses symptoms are linked to ejaculation. It happened many times in my life. But the thing that kind of disapoint me is that even after 100 days of total chastity, nothing changes. The symptoms are just lighter. I am sure if i went to do it again, it would just be 2 times worst the next night. Also because of those symptoms you build up psychological symptoms, like anxiety, negativity, because the restlessness is mentally disturbing and exhausting. All of it is linked. So basically, fuck it, i am out, forever. Ejaculation is not for me and i don't think i will never find any other way than not to ejaculate in order to be healthy and avoid these issues. I think it played a major role in how weak and depressive i was in my last teenage years. It probably contributed in many psychological and mental issues i faced during my highschool years. All of this is gone now. Fuck it.