Embarrassed, humiliated, frustrated, disgusted, and desperate

Hi I am struggling with effects of PMO for long time too, needed way to long to reliese its negative effects. Important for me was to accept its power and accept the fact that my behavior has programmed me into being a addict of this behavior and modifying my sexual interest to a screen essentialy – but don’t using that as excuse but as reason more to change now. So learning about the fundamentals of addiction is key to learn strategy to actual quit it for good I understand fully, on the cognitive level ( there is the monky brain too). And learning the why long time abstinence is so important made me scared and more motivated at the same time .

Up to know I made it nearly to 20 days but I have improved on many surrounding topics it is hard journey but it always reveals glimpses of a bright future and reading here of success story's helps too . But as you point out the valley of shame and remorse is coming and it is one of the biggest allays of addiction to drive one back to the old behavior.

Change feels like shit but you have to embrace it the reward is on the other side. Good luck and your not alone nor with your story nor you problem … its fight its worth fighting and that is crystal clear. Welcome !