SoulcycleHarmonist
New Fapstronaut
EMERGENCY - Help, pls anyone!!!
Warning: this is a long post. For those who want me to get straight to the point, I just relapsed... idk what to do anymore and I need help to complete NoFap for 90 days. Please read the rest below for the details on my case tho, would greatly appreciate it!
Ugh. My first post on this site, and I feel like absolute shit. My mind feels so frazzled and out of place; so uneasy and mentally unstable. You've guessed it. I gave into the urge. Yet again. My body feels so drained; I feel so weak, thin and at pain both physically and mentally. I feel like a complete weak ass loser who falls prey to some small time sensations that end up greatly messing up his life over and over again. I'm sick and tired of feeling this way. Despite the fact that I constantly tell myself time and time again that I won't give in anymore, I always just end up doing it. I'm at yet another loss quite literally - a loss of time, of life, of energy, of motivation, of sanity.
Here's a little about me. I'm currently 19. I started fapping since I was 12; at an age before I even started to ejaculate. At first, it was innocent. The urges were kind of stimulated by implicited sexual infatuations, but back then I was so young and naive. I mostly did it for the feeling of the deed, not for sexual arousals - for the action felt ever so sensational and relieving. But as most of you must have experienced yourselves, it just got worse and worse. Long story short, throughout the years, I developed and integrated highly sexual tendencies in my fap sessions as I started to ejaculate - it's what eventually got me addicted to fapping to porn. I did it more and more day in and day out - sometimes I fapped once a day, yet there were times I lost control of myself and binged for hours on end while watching porn or just by looking at mere pictures. I did it until my dick hurt like crazy, yet I had a monster within me that just wouldn't stop. And here I am now - having been consistently doing it for nearly 8 whole years, it was only this year when I learned about NoFap and the negative side effects and consequences from fapping excessively without control. Had I known about the effects of fapping, I would have never done it at all. I truly regret this disgusting addiction of mine and want to get rid of it for good. It's affected me to the point I think about fapping at least 10 times a day (of whether or not I should do it, as well as its effects on me and how long it will take for my mind to be rewired back to an average brain). I've attempted to go on hard mode, completely cold Turkey for 90 consecutive days for a multitude of times now - over a month - and I've relapsed like 12 times this last month alone (rip no nut nov), this including my fail days having the occasional 2 faps a day. The most consecutive days that I went without fapping was a solid week - which had one too many really intense struggle on many occassions. The only thing that's really improved since I've introduced myself to NoFap was the resistance of watching porn - but it's no good when I have vivid sexually arousing images pop up in my mind (especially considering for me to have a fetish that's hard for me to stop thinking about). This was the thing that causes me (and still does) to relapse.
I'll finally get straight to the point as I ask HOW???
How do I stop fapping for atleast 90 days?? I honestly dont ever want to fap ever again knowing the repercussions, but that's too unrealistic at this point. How do I get control of my life? I feel like this is something I have to break free out of without cheating myself.
I've been reading a lot of forums lately and have already learned a lot of tips to repress my urges, which is what I have to thank for learning how to abstain for atleast a week. Such include:
To press my legs together for 10 seconds
Cold showers/using cold water on testicles/the genitals
Exercising
Meditation
Imagining disgusting/unarousing things occurring to models/actions
Hitting myself to train myself to not feel the urges instinctively
Accepting the urges and then ignoring the thoughts by diverting the attention to other subjects/tasks at hand.
I've tried and tried and TRIED all of these, but they aren't permanent remedies. The most they do is halt the urges only momentarily - especiallywith exercising. But the urges dont just come and go - they can momentarily leave but they then last for HOURS on end unless I fap. And it's not a hyperbolic statement; today I've had a monster urge for over 3 HOURS before I gave into it. Trust me, when I start to think of a sexual image, I dont even have to hump or use my hands to fap - my dick just starts jizzing out semen bit by bit. How can I possibly control that??? If I dont fap, I waste hours of jizzing little bits until its equivalent to a couple of ml of semen. If I relapse, the urges are gone for atleast a couple of hours but then I feel weak af and suicidal. I really dont know what to do at this point and any help would be greatly appreciated. Please!
This is definitely the hardest fight of my life and I really am determined to win back my life. I believe in myself to have what if takes and for it to be possible.
Warning: this is a long post. For those who want me to get straight to the point, I just relapsed... idk what to do anymore and I need help to complete NoFap for 90 days. Please read the rest below for the details on my case tho, would greatly appreciate it!
Ugh. My first post on this site, and I feel like absolute shit. My mind feels so frazzled and out of place; so uneasy and mentally unstable. You've guessed it. I gave into the urge. Yet again. My body feels so drained; I feel so weak, thin and at pain both physically and mentally. I feel like a complete weak ass loser who falls prey to some small time sensations that end up greatly messing up his life over and over again. I'm sick and tired of feeling this way. Despite the fact that I constantly tell myself time and time again that I won't give in anymore, I always just end up doing it. I'm at yet another loss quite literally - a loss of time, of life, of energy, of motivation, of sanity.
Here's a little about me. I'm currently 19. I started fapping since I was 12; at an age before I even started to ejaculate. At first, it was innocent. The urges were kind of stimulated by implicited sexual infatuations, but back then I was so young and naive. I mostly did it for the feeling of the deed, not for sexual arousals - for the action felt ever so sensational and relieving. But as most of you must have experienced yourselves, it just got worse and worse. Long story short, throughout the years, I developed and integrated highly sexual tendencies in my fap sessions as I started to ejaculate - it's what eventually got me addicted to fapping to porn. I did it more and more day in and day out - sometimes I fapped once a day, yet there were times I lost control of myself and binged for hours on end while watching porn or just by looking at mere pictures. I did it until my dick hurt like crazy, yet I had a monster within me that just wouldn't stop. And here I am now - having been consistently doing it for nearly 8 whole years, it was only this year when I learned about NoFap and the negative side effects and consequences from fapping excessively without control. Had I known about the effects of fapping, I would have never done it at all. I truly regret this disgusting addiction of mine and want to get rid of it for good. It's affected me to the point I think about fapping at least 10 times a day (of whether or not I should do it, as well as its effects on me and how long it will take for my mind to be rewired back to an average brain). I've attempted to go on hard mode, completely cold Turkey for 90 consecutive days for a multitude of times now - over a month - and I've relapsed like 12 times this last month alone (rip no nut nov), this including my fail days having the occasional 2 faps a day. The most consecutive days that I went without fapping was a solid week - which had one too many really intense struggle on many occassions. The only thing that's really improved since I've introduced myself to NoFap was the resistance of watching porn - but it's no good when I have vivid sexually arousing images pop up in my mind (especially considering for me to have a fetish that's hard for me to stop thinking about). This was the thing that causes me (and still does) to relapse.
I'll finally get straight to the point as I ask HOW???
How do I stop fapping for atleast 90 days?? I honestly dont ever want to fap ever again knowing the repercussions, but that's too unrealistic at this point. How do I get control of my life? I feel like this is something I have to break free out of without cheating myself.
I've been reading a lot of forums lately and have already learned a lot of tips to repress my urges, which is what I have to thank for learning how to abstain for atleast a week. Such include:
To press my legs together for 10 seconds
Cold showers/using cold water on testicles/the genitals
Exercising
Meditation
Imagining disgusting/unarousing things occurring to models/actions
Hitting myself to train myself to not feel the urges instinctively
Accepting the urges and then ignoring the thoughts by diverting the attention to other subjects/tasks at hand.
I've tried and tried and TRIED all of these, but they aren't permanent remedies. The most they do is halt the urges only momentarily - especiallywith exercising. But the urges dont just come and go - they can momentarily leave but they then last for HOURS on end unless I fap. And it's not a hyperbolic statement; today I've had a monster urge for over 3 HOURS before I gave into it. Trust me, when I start to think of a sexual image, I dont even have to hump or use my hands to fap - my dick just starts jizzing out semen bit by bit. How can I possibly control that??? If I dont fap, I waste hours of jizzing little bits until its equivalent to a couple of ml of semen. If I relapse, the urges are gone for atleast a couple of hours but then I feel weak af and suicidal. I really dont know what to do at this point and any help would be greatly appreciated. Please!
This is definitely the hardest fight of my life and I really am determined to win back my life. I believe in myself to have what if takes and for it to be possible.
