@fercho29
You know, while I do agree with you about helping peoples at homeless shelter/children, it's not until recently I am starting to understand what Eckhart Tolle meant in his book Stillness Speaks. It's like each time when I go through it few times a year, I learn something about myself.
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A citation from his book :
" The mind exists in a state of "not enough" and so is always greedy for more. When you are identified with mind, you get bored and restless very easily. Boredom means the mind is hungry for stimulus, more food for thought, and its hunger is not being satisfied. When you feel bored, you can satisfy the mind's hunger by picking up a magazine, making a phone call, switching on the TV, surfing the web or satisfying your body with food.
Or you can stay bored and restless and observe what it feels like to be bored and restless. As you bring awareness to the feeling, there is suddenly some space and stillness around it, as it where. A little at first, but as the sense of inner space grows, the feeling of boredom will begin to diminish in intensity and significance. So even boredom can teach you who you are and who you are not " - Stillness Speaks, by Eckhart Tolle
And I can truly feel that has been the truth for the last 6 days of me just sitting in boredom, and observe the mind as if I am watching a movie. Little by little, the thought of boredom faded away on its own, and I started to think of things I can do. That's precisely another reason why I just stopped gaming, it took me a long while to actually understand the words written in Tolle's book, but now that I made a commitment towards reconnecting with myself, I am noticing that pattern.
I think this also has a core relation to forming new habits, because our mind was been fed during those time that we were bored, with something that stimulates it. And now that thing is no longer there, the mind keep asking for it or for something else to stimulate it.
Things I am doing right now, and slowly introducing other activities :
- Exercising
- Yoga (not the traditional one where you stand stiff in one pose, but a playful one that I enjoy a lot
https://www.youtube.com/user/michaeltaylormoves)
- Started investing time into creating assets for other peoples on a digital goods market (Design)
- Purchased a digital tablet this week to start my learning for digital painting (Something I always wanted to do)
- Commenced with Youtube as well to share/document my journey of Design/Art (Probably will start a vlog one in foreseeable future seeing how technology is going, at one point VR is going to mix into our everyday life whether we like it or not)
- Communicating with parents and watching a movie together as family
Some other activities I will start with possibly in this year :
- Go swim once a week
- Participate in events that contributes towards the well being of island (Curacao cleanup, helping other peoples etc.)
- Explore the island, go to places I haven't been on this island before
- Mountain climbing few times a year
- Play with the dog the more often
- Meet new peoples on the internet and offline
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Oh man, hopefully I didn't bombard your thread too much, ha. I love to write, can't help it. Especially when it's related to subjects I like, and also when it comes to explaining my perspective to others.
It helps a lot. And on Sunday I was watching inspirational/motivational videos for the first time on youtube - I couldn't help myself from crying. I don't how to describe the feelings that I was having. I read the comments about that guy though, did he really die? 
