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@Keli praying for you.

I read your status: Necesito dejar de pensar en tener una pareja o alguien q me quiera .

I would say pray for the grace to think about the one, really two, who love you; Jesus and Mary.

Of course us here, your brothers and sisters in Christ, love you too!

Don’t lose heart!

 

Good to hear, Kelli. The only day that counts is today. Keep praying.

 

I know you deal with loneliness Keli and that a lack of relationship makes this pain even harder to bear. As a single adult Catholic male, I have found myself faced with the same loneliness, and at times I get tempted with the idea that being single means I’m a failure in the eyes of my peers/parents and in the eyes of God. That temptation though is from the devil, since our Holy Faith teaches us that unmarried souls are not worthless or repugnant to Jesus; in fact on the contrary our Faith teaches that our single situation gives us a unique opportunity to give ourselves even more to God. In a way we’re being called to live a life that proclaims “Christ is sufficient”, but this comes with the test of faith where Christ asks us “Do you believe I am?”

I think the devil tempts you so much because he knows once the belief that Christ is enough for you takes root in your heart, you will find such peace of soul that it will be a transforming experience in your life.

In my own experience I have been finding the rosary to be of the biggest help in this journey of surrender to Christ, since our blessed Mother is the Queen of surrendering souls. As someone who deals with trust issues from past abuse, she’s given me the infant Jesus to hold. The surrender and vulnerability in the infant Jesus disarms my distrust and helps me desire union with such a God who loves me so much He willed to come to us in the form of an infant and who became wholly dependent on our protection. It’s even more amazing that He’s willed to go even further in the Eucharist.

Maybe this can help you too? Periodically throughout your day, imagine yourself holding the infant Jesus. Talk to Him. Tell Him your troubles. Tell Him your Hopes. Hold Him close and tell Him sorry for any past things that weigh on your mind and heart. Ask Him to stay with you. Ask Him to heal wounds of past friendships or relationships. Ask Him for the grace to have this thought of Him in your arms when the devil try’s to tempt you to exchange the infant Jesus for a momentary pleasure.


Imagine holding the infant Jesus while saying this surrender prayer:

Surrender Prayer

God, my Father, I thank you for all that you are, and all that you do for me through your son Jesus Christ. I praise you for my life, for your mercy and for your Eucharist. In Jesus’ name, Father, I place myself entirely in your Heart. I surrender to you my whole self, my heart, my mind, my memory, my imagination, my will, my emotions, my passions, my body, my sexuality, my desire for human approval, my weaknesses, my desires, my sins.

I surrender every person in my life to you.
I surrender every situation in my life to you. I surrender every relationship I am in to you.
I surrender every concern I have to you.
I surrender every fear I have to you.
I surrender every doubt I have to you.
I surrender all confusion I have to you.
I surrender all sadness I am experiencing in my heart to you.
I surrender all my wounds to you.
I surrender all anxiety and worry I have to you.
I surrender all that deceives me in my heart to you.

I trust you to care for me and others in a perfectly loving way.

As I have emptied myself, and surrendered everything to you, I ask you now, Father, to fill me with your Holy Spirit and all the gifts and fruits of your Spirit.

Holy Spirit you are the source of love, hope, joy, peace, patience, goodness, gentleness, tenderness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control. Purify my desires.

Help me to open my heart to you. Help me to become perfectly receptive as a pure child. Help me to believe in your love for me. Help me to hope in your love. Help me to receive from the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus all grace and virtues necessary for me to become the person you created me to be. I ask this in the Name of Jesus Christ, Your son, God Almighty Father.

O Most Holy Immaculate Virgin Mary. I entrust this prayer to your Heart, and ask you to press it to your wounded heart and intercede for me to your Son Jesus. Please help me to be as you are, a perfect disciple, an obedient servant, a true child of God. Amen.

 

I’m sorry to hear about your fall and the issues with your car. My last car was what they call a “lemon” and pretty much blew-up a month after I bought it.

Not trying to offend, but I’ve noticed your parents seem to come up usually prior to your fall. I’m sure there are plenty of cultural difference between our two countries, but is there something that keeps you wedded to them? Like are they sick or housebound and need you as a caretaker?

 

I would say if you’re going to live with your parents then setting up some boundaries would be best; This helps you define clear lines and keeps others, even parents, from taking advantage of you. Take for example going to Mass; It sounds like your parents aren’t sick, disabled, or housebound so it’s not your responsibility to get them to Mass, take them to Mass, or even offer to take them to Mass; They’re adults and can take themselves to Mass and they will find a way to Mass if it’s important to them. This means if a morning walk prior to Mass will help you mentally and physically, then you should take that walk.

 

Kelli, I recall times when you made 14 and 21 days. What did you do then that you cannot do now?