Empiness ... Is this withdrawal?

I don't think it's a normal response to not seeing porn. I think you should talk about the feelings of emptiness with your parents. You don't have to tell them about the porn.

Also, yes there are lots of famous people out there and the media makes it seem like they live fabulous lives but many of them are very sad people. There are also plenty of famous people in the IT field such as Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Steve Wozniak, Larry Page, and Sergey Brin. I recommend spending more time reading about them and less time worrying about what celebrities are doing.

 

you feel empty because nothing really makes you "happy" other than porn. My suggestion is that you can try meditation and trust me it will do great to you

 

You’re on the brink of a big change in your life (going to college etc.), so I wouldn’t be too worried about these feelings of emptiness yet. Of course it would be great if you could talk about it to someone close to you in real life.

If it’s of any help, I’m 28, starting my doctorate soon, and I still feel empty every now and then. But it’s fine in the end. Life is a harsh place and sometimes the existential anxiety can hit hard, but then comes another day! I say this because your post reminds me of myself when I was a bit younger.

As for successful / famous people, it’s mostly the facade you see on media. I’d say most of us (all of us?) are fragile inside.

The emptiness could also be a side-effect of not getting the usual rush of pleasure via PMO and now on some level you are searching for that something to provide new structure to your daily life.

All my best!

 

It could also be that you were using PMO as an unhealthy coping skill to help you deal with the emptiness you were feeling. The best thing you can do is replace your unhealthy coping skill with a healthy coping skill.

Some examples include:

• prayer
• meditation
• conversation
• journaling
• reading
• walking
• bicycling
• watching tv (in moderation)
• calling a friend/family member
• gardening

The key to a healthy coping skill is that it's something that makes you feel good in a healthy way. Almost anything can be a healthy coping skill as long as it's healthy and it helps you cope with difficult emotions.