ENDED MY 100DAY STREAK, NOW BACK AT THE BOTTOM. NEW JOURNEY!!

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by JasonIsReal, Apr 7, 2017.

  1. JasonIsReal

    JasonIsReal Fapstronaut

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    Wsup everybody,

    In September 2016 intill December 2016 I had a very clean streak going on and made it to Day 100. A little over 100 tho. Normal people say NYE I will quit this and that. I started doing NoFap again. Sooooo stupid. I thought I can see prostitute just to celebrate my streak. Congratulations, I played myself! I couldn't be more stupid. Of course this resulted in PMO real quick. Started watching this shit again for 100 Days. I am ready to quit again and today I am ready to quit for ever.

    I know the benefits, I know they are real. I know how I will feel at flatline, this scares me because I had a flatline for 75 Days dude. That shit wasnt funny. I will prolly end up there again for a long time, but I am ok with it. Day 100 felt amazing and day 100 will be high season summer. So I am ready for this man!!

    Today I am 6 days in. I'm having hard times dealing with cravings, can't sleep, can't focus. My mind is down for a relapse but Im not. Staying strong!! We got this bro's, let's get it done.

    I will keep posting updates here. I will do this untill Day 100 again. After a 100 Days I will leave the forum again because you need to let go of the past. I mean, this is a personal thing, not wisdom tho!

    I have done it before so I am very confident I will do it again. But I know it's gonna be hard. Who is with me on this?? Join me and don't relapse, even if you die, for real, even if you literally die, don't relapse.

    - NoFap
    - No Porn
    - No Lust

    One night stands is a no no, sex with your girlfriend is a go go!
     
  2. SavageDeathclaw

    SavageDeathclaw Fapstronaut

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    Hey bro, what do you consider lust? Do you restart your counter based on it?
     
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  3. Kexas23

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    this just shows one must be vigilant against our addictions even past a reboot challenge.
     
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  4. SavageDeathclaw

    SavageDeathclaw Fapstronaut

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    So true brother, this beast is sneaky and is waiting for us to let our guard down. We must not get cocky and must check up on the nofap forums at least once in a while. We are addicts and just like ex alcoholics who go to AA meetings for years after being clean, we need to speak to fellow fapstronauts even after we're clean for a while in order to stay grounded.
     
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  5. JasonIsReal

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    Thanks for your reply bro. I consider lust to be looking at women at a certain way, you know how. Somewhere near day 90 I started to know what the difference is between lust and love. And I thought I knew it but believe me it is soooo different when you are in a big streak. It's like your vision change or you are just awake and see through the bullshit. So objectifying women in every single way is consideredto be lust.

    I don't restart the counter, lust is way bigger then PMO is. Lust need a long period of time to recover deffinetely more then PMO actually. So yesh there is room for mistakes on this concept imo but try to focus on quiting Lust and focus on love or socializing instead.
     
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  6. JasonIsReal

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    Yes that's true. Around day 85 I started to get out of the flatline. The first 3 weeks of a reboot and the first 3 weeks after a flatline are very hard and discipline testing in terms of cravings. Day 100 was just 15 days away from the flatline so I was in the, what I call, danger zone. I played myself, thought I can see a hooker as a celebration and to see if my ED was gone. Haha well, it sounds legit but I just played myself. After this experience I of course had new and more intens cravings. Because I ended my streak (sex is good but hooker is lust is bad) I of course started to get get the "you allready did that you also do 1 time pmo you can handle this" bullshit entering my mind. The hooker made me feel weak, my proud was gone so I was an easy target for the cravings. I gave in because of one stupid mistake.

    So yeah, even after the 90 days. Never ever play yourself. I am a huge fan of this phrace by DJ Khaled because This is the most dangerous in NoFap. Even after a 1000 days, YOU NEVER EARNED A LUSTFUL CELEBRATION.
     
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