Hello, I’ve relepsed... again.. today even twice. My record was 14 days of abstaining but my life looks meaningless that I always return to that and say to me - but whatever.. I am 26 y.o., suffering from loneliness, chronicall sickness and chronic pain, depressed or feeling anxiety, living in isolation in unsuitable in connection to my health problems flat driving my nuts and have no family who could help me. I’ve tried meditation (and keep trying on), reading, some stretching yoga, being in touch with girls and lots of other things. My best friend has family already and no more time for me as before. It is like some vicious circle of finance shortage, illnesses etc and can’t make real progress worth a word.