Hi TimetoGrowUp, Right now I think your best way forwards is to get all internet enabled device out of your life, and make quiting porn your life's priority as a matter of urgency. It does sound like you are at a point of crisis, and with a lack of support from anywhere / anyone else, I think this may be your only realistic option. PMO absolutely messes your mental and physical health, and it ruins your ability to make rational decisions. I realise you've said you have complicated circumstances, but most people do. I honestly believe that with a significant time without PMO (or at least no P, and as little MO as possible) you will feel calmer and more energetic, and thus be better able to start to deal with all the other problems in your life. Good luck, whatever you choose to do.