I'm engaged to a beautiful girl who knows about my addiction and she really supports me. We are supposed to marry in September but I have a very bad problem which I sometimes want to talk in a very bad and seductive way to her and sometimes to hold her hand and touch her. she doesn't accept that and I know it is my fault. these attempts to talk to her that way also sabotage my recovery. any advice on how to deal with these urges? taking into consideration that we can't have sex before marriage.