Enough is Enough

After 22 years of struggling with pornography and masturbation, I've reached a point of where I don't want to do this anymore. I've struggled with this habit since I was 4 years old and have had many problems over the years (who hasn't right?) but within the last few years I've realized where my crave for pornography came from. I was molested as a child and began masturbating at a very young age. I continued that behavior all the way up to my teen years and stopped for periods of time but ultimately would start again. I lost myself completely to it 6 years ago when I began to act out because of pornography, I dabbled with escorts, was completely unfaithful to the beautiful girl I was with at the time and even began driving escorts around to make money. Alcohol was a coping mechanism with these tendencies and soon drugs were as well. I found god at 25 and have a new zest for life but I still struggle with porn and masturbating, to the point where I won't go to work some days because I just don't get out of bed like I did today. I've came across this site last fall but just passed through and didn't sign up, but I'm back because I've had it. I need to change and fix myself to be able to get to the next step in life. I hope to interact with some awesome people on here. I'm a musician in a band and student an and Hope to meet some cool people with good taste in music along the way.

 

I would read the word and submerse myself in prayer, but I've been struggling so much lately that I feel weak to the enemy. I listen to scripture but it's been so hard lately to not relapse. I haven't been able to stay away from it for over a week