Enough of this bullshit

I´m 34, been in a couple of long relationships. Fapping was always in the background, making the relationships not as good as they otherwise would have been. After I (not so recently anymore) broke up with my last girlfriend I decided to stop fapping, but haven´t been able to do it.

If I dont fap for a while my libido works fine, but when I´m fapping it doesnt work at all. I´m tired of this BS and want to move on into a new relationships, have children etc. But I cannot do it until I get this addiction under control.

I´m signing up here to commit to something. Lets see how it goes

 

Thanks

 

Extending my presentation a little:
I have an addictive personality, and can do almost unlimited binges on everything from food and sugar to alcohol and porn. I have "athletic genes" that keep me in shape, and I keep myself together even when I´m drunk. Porn on the other hand, has provided depression, PIED, lack of arousal, and probably social problems. Its obvious that a relationship can´t function when I´m in a state like this.

I just hope its not too late to fix my PIED. I´m 34, and have been wathing porn since probably 11 or 12. While my sex life has been working in periods when I have been off porn, when I´m on its completely broken. And I have been on a lot the last couple of years .

I´m good at keeping a fine facade to the world, both in behaviour and appearance. But at this point, porn has broken me down so much that I wonder if I´m actually fixable again ... And the paradox is that even when I know how much shit porn brings into my life, I STILL struggle to stay away from it! No wonder I sometimes struggle to see any hope, but I hope being active on this forum will help me