I've been dealing with this addiction for many years. I've been trying to stop for good for many years. Right now, just after I relapsed once more, I feel lost. I feel empty. This condition is ruining my life in so many aspects. I constantly have problems getting erections when trying to have sex with my girlfriend. It hurts so much to know that this happens because of my weakness and bad choices. Even after feeling so much emotional pain, I catch myself craving this disguting and destructible habit. I don't even know the point of this thread. I guess I'm looking for some help, guidence or hope. I feel like I don't have much else to give.