Hello dear NoFap community, today i'm going to share my story and give you an example of how porn is trying to ruin my life and how quickly things can escalate. I'm writing this because i almost had an awful relapse so i guess this is a good time for my 1st post. A little background i'm a 19 yo male, porn user since early age probably around 11-12. in a serious relationship for the past 2 years. Growing up in life i was a fairly average kid i had a normal life nothing too dramatic to think about. But of course i was fapping every single day before going to bed, normal casual stuff but then in the past few years things have really escalated just like that. From the casual porn stuff i got into transwoman "stuff" (at 1st i was like wow this is new and weird and it got me feeling a lot more excited it was sort of taboo stuff i knew it was weird and wrong and i kept watching and watching it) and then when that stopped giving me the feeling i started going into more "deep shit" fetishes and fendom bs. Basically i was just looking to get that good feeling like before but i just kept needing more and more. Suddenly i was watching forced feminization and i got really into the sissy hypnotic stuff and for the 1st time ever i was questioning my sexuality and i always felt horrible even sick wanting to vomit after doing all the things just to get the "good feeling for the moment". Porn basically twisted my sexuality to be "the girl" and that caused so many problems and self hate and self esteem issues and it all happened just like that. Not to mention for the past year i went form a normal even "cool" "fun chatty person" to just a depressed mummy. And all of this while faking that i am okay and maintaining a healthy relationship. I had no problems with ED in the beginning and that sort of thing but once i started doing the "other stuff" i experienced every problem in the book. That really was the tipping point and i decided to make a change. I did quit watching porn every day now all that is left are the awful urges that come and go due to the "hypno things and fendoms". NoFap has been a hit or miss i keep relapsing but i'm not giving up. I have been lurking a lot trying to improve and stop this issue that so many of us have to deal with. I am really thankful that places like this exist.