Hi thanks OP for having the courage to make this post. I used to be on here years, years ago when this place first started. I was the first to coin the term "PMO" in fact. Back then I had issues with PMO. My P problem has been resolved since. Or morphed over time into something now horrific. I went into a dark place with escorts to stop the P early on. Then went on streaks of abstinence, no PMO for months. Longest lasting was 6 months. I felt like a champ. Like I beat this. Soon thereafter I ceased all PMO and would have semi-casual sex with women. I was elated. Later, I got married and the PMO and semi-casual sex ceased. That was until SHTF. I got caught meeting up with hookers and was outed where everybody in our circle got word of it. That has got to be the hardest thing so far but my wife and I fought through it. Now, I am at a point where I publicly PMO in a semi-stealthy way. I've convinced myself that the women who can see this enjoy it because they don't make an effort to go away. It started with ogling. It's escalated to this now. I know not many of you here can relate except a few. So I am not expecting any help. I come here to share. And that I am on the path to finally seek professional help. I tried on and off for years and years and years to fight this. If there is enough reason for me to be more than a sacrifice for those that can actually fight this and win, then I know I will conquer my mind, actions and future. And will achieve all my goals and dreams. If not, maybe I would be that one post that helped that one person or persons that positively impact the lives of millions and millions of people. Never give up. Fight till the very last breath if you have to. And tell yourself everyday that you are done for good no matter what you are going through.