Escort appointment

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by dutchy_, May 6, 2022.

  1. dutchy_

    dutchy_ Fapstronaut

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    Hey

    Me: 22 years old, been addicted to pmo for 2 years now and I'm getting tired of it
    I keep failing every 3-4 days
    Im on vacation now, im sleeping next to my sister and I thought I could leave it for 2 weeks but nope
    Im doing it secretly and the fantasies just keep coming, I created a fantasy world of me doing it with all these people (teachers, family members, people I dont even know)
    IM SO MAD OF THIS ADDICTION WTH
    IT FEELS SO EMBERASSING EVEN TYPING THIS
    Im so so far away from who I want to become

    On top of that I am addicted to certain drugs and If I take drugs and pmo I can edge for days.
    It got so far 2 weeks ago I considered going to an escort.
    I promise myself after the experience I will leave all the PMO behind
    I still have to make the appointment (because im on vacation now)
    Im thinking of visiting her next week or in 2 weeks
    This question may sound stupid but..
    Will going to an escort work?
    Or will I activate another addiction?
    I know I might still get urges to PMO but I know I can CHOOSE not to do it so whenevr I feel like a urge is coming or I wanna peek then I just think of the promise
    I KNOW I can beat this addiction because its always a choice
    (sorry for my english)
    plz help anyone
     
    Last edited: May 6, 2022
  2. dutchy_

    dutchy_ Fapstronaut

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    bump
    plz someone??
     
  3. Trading one sex addiction for another doesn't sound like a step in the right direction.
     
  4. TiredOfFailing

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    Going to an escort will not fix your addiction. You may have a positive experience and just make it more difficult to quit or it won't meet your fantasy, you'll feel shitty for wasting your money, and you'll turn to the same thing you always do when you're feeling down. Also you should try not even letting your mind wander down fantasy road even without porn. And don't look at escort ads just to check what's there.
     
  5. black_coyote

    black_coyote Fapstronaut

    Friend, I feel that you are in the addict loop, running around in circles relapsing 3 to 4 days...However you really want to get out of this suffering. You really wish to. But you are finding is really painful...The "pleasure" of edging and drugs is toxic which you very well know. But you are comfortable staying with the familiarity of the toxic home rather than venturing out of the den...

    Getting out of this suffering is painful.

    You try to find some comfort and escape in escorts...you probably think that maybe if you are with real person, then tendency to consume porn will disappear. It is highly unlikely that a visit to escort will make your addiction disappear...

    This is your life, your journey, I'd encourage you to be true to yourself and make choices that you feel is the best.

    What I'm saying is that ultimately, if you want to end this addiction, you will have to face the pain of withdrawals and move ahead with resolve and tenacity. Right now, you maybe going through that urge to relapse again....It is a fight...whether next relapse happens depends on your tact and your resolution...get out of the house, go take shower, go run, wear tight clothes, talk to your family or friends, clean the room, shave, trim your nails, do the laundry, take out the thrash, take push-ups, dance to music...

    One day or another, you have to break off the loop, you have to go clean for 3 months, and more..and more...as you discover the freedom, you will know that there is no point going back to the crap loop anymore....

    Rebooting is the quintessential part of Recovery

    Stay strong buddy! :)
     
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  6. Rene75

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    When I went on vacation with friends and didn't PMO I would have the most crazy fantasies when there was some idle time.
    I'm not against prostitution, but its not an answer to stopping PMO or sex addiction.
    Do you have someone, preferable older, who you can trust and talk to?
    Maybe your father, uncle, someone work, old teacher, anyone who will listen?
    Acting out with prostitutes and drug in combination with sex addiction is very dangerous way to go and will only amplify your problems exponentially.
     
  7. MoutainGoat

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    1. I still believe that men are looking for connection.
    2. If you will be "masturbating" using someone elses body how is that different from Porn?
    3. I am personally unable to pay for sex as it goes against everything I believe in.
    4. I was abused quite a lot when I was a kid and adolescent.
    5. In my dictionary: prostitution = different type of abuse.
    6. Because I was abused so much in the past, I would never abuse + I would rather try to help those who sell themselves.
    7. In the past I had quite a lot of one night stands.
    8. Imagine a kid in a big city with his own apartment pursuing girls 3x per week.
    9. The best is when you find a girl and teach you what you like.
    10. Of course you need to watch yourself because girls are quite often bad influence on you.
    11. I have usually felt bad after all those one-night stands.
    12. Of course society is pushing you into thinking that one night stands are cool and that prostitution is acceptable. They even call them Working Girls and Sex Workers.
    13. Friend took me into brothel once.
    14. I have asked a "working girl" about her dream and she started crying.
    15. I have asked another one and she also had tears in her eyes.
    16. "Friend" told me that he will never take me there again.
    17. Imagine if this would be your Mother, Sister, Daughter or Auntie.
    18. Would you ask her "Did you always wanted to end up like a prostitute?"
     
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  8. dutchy_

    dutchy_ Fapstronaut

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    oh yeah... you right
    I still maybe can try one time just to see how it is
     
  9. dutchy_

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    Before I discovered PMO I always fantasized about people and touching them.. I just curious how this experience escort turns out
    The escort give GF service
     
  10. dutchy_

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    Is very true what you say
    Just feels like my body dont care at all
    Im a slave to the addiction and outside of that I WANT to care but I dont care anymore
     
  11. dutchy_

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    Yes I told my mom and she say its very normal because alot of men are addicted to this
    She want to help me and my parents even let me sleep in their room so I dont pmo
    It kinda works :)
     
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  12. MoutainGoat

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    I can see that you are 109 days without PMO. It is easy for me to judge.

    I will be praying for you and hoping that you find a way.
     
  13. If you try it once you can never go back. The same way porn tempts you now, that experience will tempt you for the rest of your life. Please don’t do it
     
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  14. dutchy_

    dutchy_ Fapstronaut

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    No Im not
    I did not update it
    My longest has been 14 days wich was few months ago and it felt quite good.
    I wanna try again and I know I can do it so I will not give up and this time I will give my 100%
    I was just curious about escorts and company because Im also dealing with depression and loneliness... Just someone to cuddle with feels relieved and thats my intention, not having sex but just someone who cares about me
    Yesyes, I know its an act but still... It feels good to just be with a person instead of sitting in my home all day PMO
     
  15. dutchy_

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    Hmm yeah this feels very true....
    I remember when I started to PMO I said "this is gonna be the last time i promise myself" and that was 2 years ago
    Still an addict till this day and I kinda regret watching and trying out something I shouldn't have done
     
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  16. dutchy_

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    I MIGHT go this friday because I just came back from vacation
    I just wanna see how it is everyone and I know its not the right way but maybe I can leave it alo just behind after this experience and finally move on with my life
     
  17. TiredOfFailing

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    Everytime you escalate your addiction you just make it harder to quit. Whenever I hit a new threshold, it's always, "just to see", just curious, then I'll be done for good. I don't got any agenda, just telling you what I've experienced. Best of luck, stay safe.
     
  18. dutchy_

    dutchy_ Fapstronaut

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    Yeah... I see that
    Its just that Im 22 years and still a virgin and im done with it. Ima visit someone and then ima be done with PMO for good
    I will get help from a profesional in future if It doesnt work
     
  19. MoutainGoat

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    Why is being a virgin a problem? :)

    Would it be better to sleep with twenty girls in the age of 22?
     
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  20. OhWhenThe

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    I think so.
     

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