Wow, you have my respect hehe. I had night long sessions with 2 at the same time while taking and smoking crystal and other drugs, drinking booze. Summer 18. I went to work with two open bleeding knees, difficulties walking ... That‘s when I realized can‘t top that without harming myself really badly. (Not that it makes a difference really just to be open, I was with male escorts ...) Have some codependency issues on top, so easily feel sorry and want to help. That cost me another bit of money in this whole process lol. That‘s it. DON‘T debate, don‘t start arguing, don‘t start the negotiation. There‘s the confirm bias, cognitive dissonance factor of the brain. We always find reasons, the brain will ALWAYS find reasons for why it‘s ok to do it once more. I wasn‘t sure either if maybe I am not determined enough. But the addict brain will always win in arguments over the reasonable part. Then it‘s hormonal on top. A lot comes together. That‘s why I alone am powerless. Cause I am addicted and I am needy. How can I stop I, how can me stop me? Not by arguing, by getting quiet. Listen. And learn not to react to thoughts.