So good to see everybody is on the road here, even when we feel we it's hard and we would rather give up. I respect each and every one of you for being here and fighting the good fight. The past 9 days has been amazing for me: the classic NoFap success story: testosterone is up in the sky, workouts bringing serious results, shiny eyes etc. Porn and escort rarely pops into my mind. Sometimes it is easier if i imagine the addiction as a person: currently it's lurking in the background... i can feel sometimes whispering to me. It is waiting for me to be depressed, tired or stressed enough to put its greasy fingers on my shoulders and say: "Hey im here for you. Call that number, i know you want to do it. Can you feel the rush just thinking about it?" I have to be careful. I have to be aware. I can't always be up in the sky. Of course now i do everything just to be balanced, but i have to be prepared when i won't be. I'm preparing for harder days now. I know that the pump of the first 10 days quickly fades. This has to be sustainable. I decided im going to the local SAA meeting this saturday. Hopefully i can gather the courage to do that. Recently i'm trying out the "Red X" techinque: whenever something porn or escort related pops into my mind i spraypaint a big, red X on it in my imagination while sirens go off in the backgound. It helps a lot to stay focused and snaps me back to reality before i give myself a chance to wander off.