Escorts and pmo addiction

Hi everybody
First time hear altought i´ve been reading a lot about the issue since 2014 from this reddit and also from ybon.

A little introdution,
I’m 43 and been dealing with PMO and escorts addition for a long time. Started faping for as long as i can remenber, every day, many times more than once. First just by imagination, than to porn VHS, later to downloading sex videos, and more recently to internet high speed streaming tubes.
Simultaneously, for many years, i've been aroused just by hooking up girls, that most i was not much fancy for, but as i objectified them just to have sex. That led me to an escalated damage behavior of looking up to escorts in web sites and going often to night clubs, at the same time that I was engaging in the PMO sessions, as an escape to get the dopamine release feeling and alleviate from working stress, loneliness, anxiety, etc...

In the end of 2014 I discovered yobp and started my first no pmo harmode journey and got to, more or less, 60 days of no pmo (despite of a little edging in between). This was my longest strike and also the best period of my adult age life and since then, after many short-period reboots and relapses, today i'm on my 8th day of another no pmo hardmode journey, and for the first time i'm feeling very determine to accomplish at least a 100 days strike, before involving in a sex relationship with someone for whom I’ll have a serious and truthfully feeling.

So i would like to know your opinion regarding to the padrone behavior that I express, as if getting the dopamine rush of seeing escorts as the same effects as pmo and also if the benefits from totally abstaining from pmo could led me to a new life.

Thanks.
José

 

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