"It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell." -- Buddha Goal 1. Continue living life with 100% honesty (this is new for me). No lies. Ever. No exceptions. Goal 2. Start thinking about what I REALLY want to do with the remaining years of my life. I'm 48 years old and I have nothing to lose by trying. Goal 3. Invite supportive men and women into my life, and offer support to men and women in my life. This means I want a true connection with family and friends. I haven't seen my 2 sisters in 5+ years; haven't seen or spoken to my brother in 20+ years; and, I haven't seen or spoken to my stepfather in 5+ years. On the plus side: I have made 2 friends in the past 2-3 months. Goal 4. Pursue a long-term relationship. I was separated for 13 months prior to my divorce on December 3, 2019. I want to share my life with a woman of exceptional beauty, strength, and character. I want to take my time and really get to know her and share life with her. I feel like the most important quality that I have to offer is 100% honesty: No lies. No exceptions. Ever. I want the same quality from my partner. I will be at least 100 days PMO before I consider having sex with a woman, and I want to have sex only with the woman I intend to marry. I am 48 years old, and have no children, yet I see myself being a loving husband and father/stepfather, the protector of my family, and I want to receive and offer unconditional love and support from family. I am attracted to women between the ages of 28-50, and I am OK if the woman I love and wish to marry already has/doesn't want to have to have more/cannot bear children, as long as I feel close to, am welcomed, accepted and respected as a loving, supportive member of her family. And I want her to have the same desire and expectation towards my family. I am willing to go out of town/state/country to meet the love of my life, and I am pleasantly surprised how welcoming and optimistic I feel about this. Goal 5. Stop taking alprazolam (for life). Goal 6. Consider a 401(k) loan. Goal 7. Repair vehicle. Goal 8. Explore other job opportunities. I have been with the same company for almost 5 years now, but work has been a real struggle lately. Business has been very slow over the past few months. The company has laid off dozens of workers and still appears to be downsizing. I'm suffering financially, and I have zero savings. I fear I could be fired/laid off after the new year, so updating my resume and looking for jobs NOW alleviates the stress and feels somewhat empowering. Goal 9. Update my resume with 100% honesty. Goal 10. Finish the 100-day Spartan Challenge on nofap.com, via hard mode: no porn, no masturbation, no orgasm. Goal 11. Explore moving to another city/state/country. Goal 12. Start thinking about dating. Goal 13. Visit my family members in Ohio. Goal 14. Do what it takes to ensure that my credit is 100% clean. Goal 15. Assume financial responsibility for my auto insurance. I am still on my ex-wife's auto insurance policy. Next payment is due 12/28/19. Goal 16. Increase my 401(k) contribution from 3% to 10%. After year 5 with my company (February 22, 2020), I will be 100% vested. Research how this works. Know about 401(k). Goal 17. Stop taking testosterone cypionate (for life). Goal 18. Add non-animal protein sources to diet. Goal 19. Enjoy a maximum of 2 K-Cups of coffee consumption per day, first thing in the morning only.